Update on Miles

If you haven't read about my friendship with Miles ending, then you may want to read it here before moving on.

Well, Miles actually wrote me an email while I was in Hawaii. He started off by calling me a nickname that he knows I hate. And he even acknowledges that in the email. So WHY he would do that is beyond me. Maybe he's trying to be funny... but that's not the route to take when you're trying to reconcile.

Then he says that it's obvious that we haven't talked to each other in a long while and that he'd like to sit down and chat so that he can "get stuff off his chest." Off HIS chest? The only thing he should be doing is apologizing. That put me off already...

So I was cordial and replied to him. I told him that I would be back at work after Hawaii and that we can talk then. Well, I've since returned to work. He's had many opportunities to come and talk to me. Again, I still don't find reason for me to make the effort. He's the one that needs to apologize so he should come and talk to me. He knows where I am at work and there are ample amounts of opportunity for him to have a private conversation with me. He just doesn't do it.

I know many of you have commented saying that I should just be the better person and initiate the conversation. And I may have to do that, but it's just so annoying that he won't do it. And I have a feeling it's because he feels that he has done NOTHING wrong. He NEVER thinks he is wrong. In anything that we do. Even if it's CLEAR that he's wrong, he'll make some excuse or place the blame on someone else. So it's probably the case here.

Just completely frustrating and I really don't know what I want to do with it. I don't think our friendship will ever be the same even if we reconcile, but maybe I need to just do something so that it's not as awkward as it has been at work where we don't say more than 2 words to each other in the entire day...

A Friendship Ends

It seems as though my friendship with Miles has ended. (Read my "Important People" section in the sidebar on the right for a short description of who he is). I definitely considered him to be one of my very best friends. We hung out together all the time. But we've always had a really weird friendship. We like to make fun of each other and call each other out on things. People who don't know us very well would ask why we were friends because we seem to be so mean to each other. But that's just how it worked. And we thought it was funny. Just as long as we were just making fun of each other, you know?

Well, as you may know, I work at Disneyland and I have girl partners that I dance with. Being girls, they are ALWAYS weight conscious no matter how skinny they really are. But us guys have our locker room talk and conversation always steers toward our partners... how well they lift their own weight, whether they're good partners, how easy/hard it is to lift them, etc. Well, I mentioned that one of the girls was probably not the easiest to lift just because she is heavier than the other girls but I wasn't saying it maliciously or in any way to imply that she was fat. Just stating a fact. And I said that Miles would probably have a harder time lifting her if they were partners... but mostly a dig at him before heing weak.

Well, a few days after that, when I wasn't at work that day, Miles goes up to her and just casually says, "You know... Doug told me that I wouldn't be able to lift you." So of course, the next day that I'm back at work, the girl confronts me and asks why I would say that. I was so surprised and in shock by it that I didn't know what to say to her. Luckily another girl was next to me and bailed me out. But I was so mad that Miles would repeat it.

After that happened, I called Miles out and asked him what the hell he was thinking repeating what I said to him. He just laughed, thinking that it was funny. I explained to him that I thought what we talked about in the locker room should be kept just among the guys and not to be repeated. I reiterated that I was upset but, again, he just laughed. He probably thinks it's just like any other dig that we make at each other, but this actually invovled another person. What he said hurt another person's feelings. And my friendship with the girl involved has suffered because of it. I can't let that go.

This was about 3 weeks ago. And since that day, I have yet to have a normal conversation with him again. We've had to interact with each other while performing and I had to return something that he loaned me, but that's been it. So from best friends to not talking at all. Today, we passed each other in the hallway, saw each other, and didn't even talk.

And the thing is... if only he just came up to me and APOLOGIZED for what happened, then everything will be fine. But I just don't think I should make any effort to reconcile.. It should be HIM. He needs to make the effort because he was at fault in this whole situation, don't you think? Why should I be the one to try and make up and regain our friendship. Not going to lie, I miss talking and hanging out with him, but he has totally lost my trust. Don't you all think it's just ridiculous that he won't apologize??

Long Beach Gay Pride

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Watching Ellen Live!

So I went to a taping of the Ellen show in Los Angeles today. Definitely had a fun time with Miles, Jon, and N. Jon got tickets to the show by checking the Ellen Show's website EVERY day. And when they had tickets available, he pounced on that. So THANKS Jon! Then a few days ago, we used our powers of deduction to find out who the guest will be on the day of our taping. We just figured it would be whoever is listed as the guest for the next day, when it airs on TV. And the guest.... Vanessa Hudgens... sigh. The un-talented star from High School Musical. We were less than thrilled. In fact, N and Miles absolutely HATE her. They had to work with her for a filming of the Walt Disney World Christmas Day Special that aired on ABC two years ago. And she was so incredibly UNPROFESSIONAL and made the filming last way longer than it needed to be. So since then, they've hated her.

But when we got there, we were pleasantly surprised and found out that her show had been previously taped! And our taping was for a future date. Our guest: Kevin Nealon, former SNL cast member and now star of Weeds on Showtime! :) He was a funny guest. Every time he told a joke, we clapped. And my hands started hurting from clapping too much. HAHA. We also got some free stuff.... An ADVIL care package (64 tablets of Advil), Weeds Season 3 DVDs, and a pair of nice in-ear headphones. :) The headphones are REALLY nice, super comfy, and have good sound quality. I'm too lazy right now to go check what brand they are... but I'm not really trying to do a commercial for them anyway.

There were some hot, good looking guys at the filming. Not too many. But a few to look/gawk at. There was one guys with really nice muscles and a hot butt. Wanted to sit near him, but they sat me about 8 rows behind him. Bummer. And then there was this other guy with his, presumably, girlfriend with muscles for days! He was huge! And he wasn't like the chubby muscles.. he was muscle muscles! YUM! Miles was drooling over him. HAHA.

Oh speaking of muscles... Hugh Jackman was the guest for Ellen on yesterday's program. We thought we had missed seeing him by one day, but it turns out his was taped a while ago too. But anyway, I think Hugh Jackman is so hot!

I watched "Wolverine" in the theaters over the weekend and I loved him in it. You know... it wasn't the best movie ever, but I thought it was entertaining. And Ryan Reynolds was way hot in it, so that was another plus.

But anyway, Miles doesn't think Hugh Jackman is hot.... I was shocked to hear him say that! How can he not think he's hot?! What's not hot about him? Good looks. Yummy muscles. Talented actor. Great singer. HOT Aussie accent. Miles is weird sometimes. We definitely have different tastes in men.. but I guess that's good cuz then we'll never fight over guys.

In sort of other news, I had to dress up for the taping of the Ellen show today and I was quite satisfied with how I looked in my outfit. I usually think that I look weird wearing a dress shirt and slacks. I just didn't seem to fit into them even though I was wearing my size. I dunno, hard to explain, but when I look in the mirror, I just felt like I didn't fill out the clothes. Well, today, I actually liked what I saw in the mirror. It MAY have something to do with the P90X exercise program and me gaining more muscles. And that makes me feel more confident about my body. Whatever it is, I liked it and I am happy about it. :)

My Friends Piss Me Off

Let me preface: Miles was Pip's "Secret Santa" this past Christmas. His gift to her was a big dinner with a big group of friends and he would pay for her. Since then, we've been trying to get together for a dinner. Every single week, someone had SOMETHING to do... we would set a date and then someone would bail last minute. Set another date, and then have to reschedule again because someone forgot they had something to do that night. It is now February 19th!! Almost 2 months after Christmas!! We were supposed to have this dinner tonight! But just now, about 10 minutes ago, Davie decided that he had plans instead and couldn't go anymore! ARGH! I do NOT want to go to a big dinner and spend money without everyone there. So guess what... we're rescheduling again! AGAIN!!

And why am I so freakin' mad about this?! Because I met a boy online tonight and he's FUCKING HOT and interested in ME! And I told him I couldn't meet up with him tonight because I HAD A DINNER WITH MY FRIENDS!! Now he's gone and made plans of his own and we can't meet up. And we can't meet tomorrow cuz both of us have plans with friends. I can't this weekend because I'm snowboarding. And next Mon-Thurs, I'll be in rehearsal for my new show until 10:30pm.... so you see why I'm so frustrated?!?! ARGH!!!

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Other News Update: Davie definitely knows that it's me on that hookup site. And knows my "secret" online screen name. Now I'm worried about him finding me on xTube! EEEK! THAT would be REALLY embarrassing!

New Years Party

So my last post made it sound like I was the one all drunk at the party - but it was quite the opposite. Actually, I was one of the only ones sober the whole night. I did have some champagne but I just drank my Martinelli's Sparkling Cider the rest of the night.

But my friends on the other... wow... some of them were drunk messes. Jeez. I got to ML's house at 11:30 or so. And right when I walk in, I already hear loud screaming and see people running around like crazies. LOL. Our friend Amy kept jumping up and down with her boobs half hanging out yelling my name. "Doug ____! Doug _____!!!" HAHA.

And then one point in the night, Amy took our other friend Neil's phone and so Neil started chasing her around the house. Well, they got to a corner and Neil ran smack into Kelly's face. Kelly got a bruise on the bridge of her nose and was in the bathroom examining it while Neil is still drunk and on the floor, yelling for his phone. Ridiculous! but super funny! LOL.

Other memorable moments:

• Sang the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air song because it was on TV, but all wrong cuz most everyone was drunk
• Saw the Hoveround commercial on TV and decided to crank call it and pretend to order one
• Erected a human pyramid (see figure 1)
• Jeff saw a bottle of White Zinfandel and decided that it was trashy to bring it to a party and poured it down the sink!! (what a bitch!!)
• Compared penis sizes (through a tape measure. lol. didn't really whip it out!)
• Miles gave a masterclass/seminar on how to give a great blowjob. I learned a few new things! hehe.

(Figure 1)

So I definitely had a good time! And it was one of my first New Year's parties with my friends. Actually, it might actually be my first. Every other time, I was home alone or with family. So yay!

WeHo w/ the Boys

So here's my more detailed post about my night in West Hollywood with the boys.

The night started out at my apartment. Miles and I got ready at my place because we had work during the day. So we showered and got dressed. Jon came over as well to make dirty martinis for Miles and himself... to sort of get the night started. I was the designated driver, so I didn't have a glass... or did I?


HAHA, don't worry.. that's not a real martini. I just poured some Simply Lemonade (the best brand of lemonade there is!!) and just pretended. It made for a cool photo tho, right? :)

By 9:15, the rest of the boys, Reggie and Kevin, arrived as well and we were ready to head out! (Reggie and Kevin are Miles' good friends. It was cool to hang out and get to know them better) It took me about 45 minutes to get there. We looked for some street parking, but that was a futile attempt. So we just decided to fork over the cash and pay for parking in a lot.

We walked over to The Factory where the Instinct party was held, but if you read the previous post then you know that the party had already ended when we got there. LAME SAUCE. We were already there, and we weren't going to just leave, so of course we decided to go bar hopping. We decided on Fiesta Cantina to start, mostly because of their 2 for 1 Drink Special. I got two Midori Sours. Yummy.

Unfortunately, I couldn't even finish one of them before I started feeling woozy. My heart started to pound real hard too. And then I just got REAL sleepy all of a sudden. My eyes would shut without me even knowing and then a few seconds later, I would realize that I was falling asleep and have to wake myself up. The bar stool that I was sitting on was right up against the wall, so I just leaned back into the wall and I definitely fell asleep a couple of times. Kevin tried showing me a picture he took on his phone but I was totally asleep. Miles had to yell at me to wake up! LOL. After him yelling at me, I felt more awake and made a conscious effort to keep my eyes open. And from then on, I was much better. But it was definitely my cue to NOT drink anymore. So Jon drank the rest of my drinks.

And let me say that Fiesta Cantina had quite a few cute boys! Some of them were just my type: cute white boys, blonde, athletic to muscular build. MMMM. YUMMY. Of course, none of those type of guys would EVER give me a second look. But they were nice to gawk at, nonetheless :)

Then, Miles' friend from Instinct (Robert) showed up with his boyfriend (Jarrod). It was Robert's birthday so we wished him a very Happy Birthday. It was my first time meeting Robert, and he's SUCH a nice guy! And I have to say he's a REAL cutie too. :) They stayed for a while with us in Fiesta Cantina, but then we all decided to go ahead to Eleven to do a little dancing. :)

When we got to Eleven, we saw that there was a long line to get in, so we said "screw that" and walked into East West instead. Not crowded at all. In fact, I probably prefer East West because it's very relaxed. There were couches everywhere and we grabbed one and sat down.

While in a very relaxed setting, there were quite a few weirdos there as well. First of all, there was an older guy who had a nice body that was clearly drunk. When we first got there, we just see him throw this guy onto the couch and then start humping him right then and there. After about 20 seconds of that, he got off him and apologized for doing it. Apparently, they didn't know each other. HAHA. And then he proceeded to take off his shirt in front of the window so that people walking on the streets would yell and holler at him. HAHA.. crazy guy.

Also, there were two older lesbian ladies who were clearly drunk. One of them was much drunker than the other and started to dance with any gay guy she had in sight. Unfortunately, Robert fell victim to her, and being a super nice guy, just went along with it. It looked like he had fun though :)


There's the drunk lesbian on the left and Robert falling over laughing at her. It looks like she's calling him over to dance some more. Also, if you click the pic to enlarge it, you'll notice the gays in the back just cracking up at the lesbian. LOL.

I really had a great time there. And it was just fun to be out with a bunch of boys. And tho it would've been nice to have met a boy while I was out there too (hehehe), I really wasn't expecting that and I was just happy to be having fun with friends.

Top to Bottom, Left to Right: Jarrod, Robert, Miles, Jon, Kevin, Me, Reggie

I'm really not a bar hopping, club dancing, drinking at parties kind of guy. But I enjoy myself when I do go out and do that stuff. I'm actually proud of myself for being able to have some fun outside my apartment. LOL. I do wish I went out to have fun more often. I really am wasting my time when I just sit at home and watch TV alone. I could be out having fun with friends, meeting new people. It really MUST be one of my New Year's Resolutions... if not THE most important one of them all. I need to stop being a lazy ass and get myself out there. I'm 24 years old and I need to start living life before it's too late.

Night Out to WeHo

So I posted before about going to the Instinct Magazine party in West Hollywood. So the boys and I got ready and got there around 10:30pm or so. When we got to the front of the club, they were taking down the Instinct banners and signs. Miles saw one of his friends that work at Instinct and asked what was going on. Apparently, the party was only from 8-10pm. And the 600+ people that were there had all left already. LOL. How ridiculous. What kind of West Hollywood party ends at 10?! haha.

Well, basically, we just went bar hopping the rest of the night. I had a lot of fun with the boys just drinking and messing around. This happened Friday night, so I'm actually late in posting this for you all. But I had a busy day today and I think I'm going to save all the picture posting and details until tomorrow. :)

In other news, my shoulder is getting better. I decided to try and do some push ups again tonight. Well, after 10, I didn't feel any pain, so I just kept going. I got up to 50 and decided to stop... And when I say "I decided" I mean my arms were tired. heh. But 50 is pretty good for not doing any push ups for the past 2 weeks right? I took a small break (maybe 90 seconds) and then did another 25 push ups. Then I called it a night. My RIGHT shoulder is actually starting to hurt a bit now (it was my left before), so I'm not going to push it any further.. But I'm definitely going to try and get back into a workout routine.

Speaking of that, I'm actually going to be discontinuing my 24 Hour Fitness gym membership.. well.. I'm going to put it on hold for now. I am REALLY tight on money, so that's one cost that I have to forgo for now. Besides, my apartment complex has a gym that I can utilize. I also had to put my Netflix account on hold. AND my porn subscription! >:( Ok, well only one out of two subscriptions. LOL. Porn is a NECESSITY! HAHA. Hopefully, cutting these costs will make it a little better on my wallet.

Well, stay tuned for the pics from WeHo!

Yes Man

Tonight, after work, I went to see the movie "4 Christmases" with Miles and Jen. It was funny, but it wasn't as funny as some of my friends said it would be. I wouldn't say I was disappointed... but I just wish it was funnier.

Well, one of the previews before the movie was the new Jim Carrey movie, "Yes Man." Basically, Jim Carrey's character is a guy that likes to say "no" to everything. One day, he gets dragged into a motivational gathering of some kind and the motivational speaker tells him that he's not living his life because he's always declining everything. So he challenges him to say YES to whatever opportunity is brought before him.

I find this a very interesting idea. An idea that I should think about adopting myself. Ok, so it's just silly to say yes to EVERYTHING... but it definitely wouldn't hurt to say yes to more things. Instead of defaulting to "no," maybe I can at least give more thought to a "yes" answer. For example, tonight, my friend from work left me a voicemail on my phone asking if I wanted to hang out with him and other friends from work at the beach for a bonfire. This friend who called me isn't a close friend and his friends aren't part of my circle of friends, so I would have kind of been the outsider at the bonfire. And knowing that, I defaulted to "no" and declined the offer. BUT, what if I had said "yes?" I would've gone to the bonfire and probably gotten to know him a little better. I may also have made some new friends while at the bonfire. But because I am 1) so complacent with my life and 2) too chicken to meet new people, I said "no."

Well, I think it's time to change that. If I don't change, I'm going to be stuck in the horrible rut that I'm in right now. If I don't change, then I will never turly live my life. So, as I write this blog, I am telling myself that I am making a conscious effort to change. I will take advantage of and say "yes" to as many opportunities as I can (as long as it doesn't break the bank or compromise my safety!). And who knows? Maybe by doing this, I can meet a guy! ;)

What do you guys think of this idea? Are there any specific moments in your life that you said "NO" to but wish you had said "YES?"

The Color Purple

Tonight, I went on a "date" with Miles to see The Color Purple, the Broadway show. It's playing at the Orange County Performing Arts Center (OCPAC) right now. I bought season tickets to the Broadway shows for the 08-09 season at OCPAC and The Color Purple is the first show in the series.

For those unfamiliar with the show, or the Oprah movie, or the book, it's about a girl name Celie, who lives in the early 1900s in Georgia. And it's basically her life, living with an abusive father, then an abusive husband, and her struggles through it all. I had never read the book or seen the movie. And I had never heard any part of the musical either. And that's a first, because every musical I've been to, I was familiar with the music beforehand. But this time I wasn't.

I think had I been a little bit more familiar with the music, I would've enjoyed it more. I was sitting in the nosebleeds (cheap seats) so it was a little hard to hear the dialogue and some of the singing. I mean, it was loud enough, but I couldn't understand the words very clearly. And the music was okay. Nothing that I'm totally excited about. It didn't make me want to buy the CD. The singing was amazing. GREAT vocals from the girl who played Celie. But the show as a whole didn't "wow" me.

It was sort of hyped up to be a musical about love that was going to be super emotional. My friends warned me to bring tissues since they know me to be an emotional guy that cries... er... tears up in movies. (When I was flying home from Tokyo by myself 2 years ago, the movie CLICK with Adam Sandler was on, and I was bawling like a baby! Tears flowing down my face, snot coming out, and that thing you do where you're trying to catch your breath when you're crying.. yea.. all of that.. while on a plane, sitting next to strangers who probably thought that I was crazy) So, I was all ready with a half dozen or so sheets of Kleenex. But I didn't have to use any! I teared up at the end.. but that was about it! I don't know... I guess it's never good to have anything hyped up because there are just expectations that are usually not met.

Oh well -- the tickets were relatively cheap (since they're part of the season tickets) and it was a nice night off. And Miles and I checked out these three gay guys sitting in the row below us and to the left. They looked over at us a few times too. There was one guy who was totally my type: cute face, blonde hair, light eyes, and around my height. YUM. Unfortunately, they left at intermission to find better seats, while we just stayed put. We should've followed them!!

What Happens In Vegas....

.... doesn't stay in Vegas when who is involved has a blog to write! It's already Wednesday morning and I feel bad that I haven't written earlier. But better late than never right? So many things happened in Vegas, but maybe I can kill two birds with one stone. Everyone has been doing their "10 Things" list on their blogs, so I might as well do that same, but use it to write about Vegas! (WARNING: this is a SUPER long post! lol)

So just a little background, I went with a group of my friends to Vegas. There were 4 of us the first night (Eric, Jon, Kelly, and me) and then 6 of us the second night (ML and Miles drove up themselves). Then we all left to go back home together on Sunday afternoon.

So here are my 10+ Things That Happened in Vegas (And since I've been so late posting this, I'm going to make it up by making a picture blog):

1. The first thing that we did after we checked into our hotel at the MGM Grand Casino and Hotel was go downstairs to its little shopping area and get drinks at Fat Tuesday. For those who don't know what Fat Tuesday is, it's a little store that sells blended alcoholic drinks in mugs, glasses, and jugs. And they have many flavors - most of them VERY good. We got there and had jello shots right away. Of course, it had to be cherry flavor jello... BLECH. If it was any other flavor, I would like it more. I just hate cherry. It always tastes like medicine to me.

Our hotel: The MGM Grand! (That's Kelly in the reflection)

2. The Planet Hollywood Hotel and Casino was THE hangout for our group this trip. After our shots at the Fat Tuesday in MGM, we walked over to the Fat Tuesday at Planet Hollywood and got drinks there. Another friend from work, Chris, was in Vegas with his friends at the same time we were, and it just so happened that they were at that Fat Tuesday too! While we were in line to get drinks, I felt someone put their hands on my shoulder and I thought, "Who the hell is touching me?!" And I turned around, and it was Chris! He was already pretty drunk. Apparently, they had been sitting in front of the Fat Tuesday for a while. After we got our drinks (I got a Bellini, which is basically Peach Schnapps and Champagne), we all sat down together and chatted for a good 30 minutes to an hour. Just hanging out and getting drunk! I kept taking sips of the drink because I knew I needed to take it slow or else I'd get sick. But the drink tasted soooo good that I drank a LOT of it in a short period of time. So, that meant that my face got REAL red and hot, and I got kind of loud. My friends thought it was funny. :)

(left to right)
Me, Kelly, Chris, Jon, and Eric

3. After we said goodbye to Chris and his friends, we went to the lounge inside the MGM Grand Casino: Tabu. We got in free because Jon knows someone in the Cirque du Soleil show @ the MGM, KA, and he got us into the lounge. It was a nice place. Pretty small, since it really is just a lounge and not a club. But people were dancing, and so we danced. Unfortunately, there wasn't much to look at around us. The crowd was definitely an older crowd, filled with guys that can't dance and girls that think that just being slutty means dancing. So, after about 10-15 minutes of this place, we decided to leave. I guess it wasn't that bad, considering it was free to get in. Just wish it was a little better. And afterwards, we decided to head back to the hotel room, where my friends called it a night.


4. And while Kelly and Eric decided to stay in, Jon and I went downstairs because I wanted to try my hand at roulette. So here was my plan. I'd play 3 rounds MAXIMUM. 1st round: I bet $10 on RED. If I lose, I go back upstairs. If I win, I play again. 2nd round: I bet all $20 on RED. Again, if I lose, I go back upstairs. But if I win, I move on to the next round. 3rd round: I bet $20 on RED again, and pocketing $20. If I lose, then I still have $20. But if I win, I have $60, and will have been $50 richer. And why just RED? Because Red is the color of fortune in China (along with blood and Communism... but that's besides the point). So I get to an empty roulette and exchange chips for the $10. Right as I do that, 3 older guys come to the table and exchange for chips too, but they each put down $100... How embarrassing... Anyway, I bet RED. First spin: Red 19! NICE. So then I put all $20 on RED again. Second spin: Black something. Don't remember the number, because I lost. So, unfortunately, my plan didn't work out very well. Upon further analysis of my betting, in Round 2, I should've pocketed $10, and bet the other $10 on RED. This will have given me at least let me break even. Oh well... you live and learn. You win some, you lose some. (Insert some other idiom here)

5. I did not spend money on meals on this trip to Vegas. Normally, I have to eat at least ONE buffet. Eric and I had talked about getting the awesome Seafood Buffet at the RIO... but we just never did it because Jon and Kelly couldn't afford it. And we didn't win any money in the casinos to justify spending that. So basically, we ate fast food the entire weekend. After the first night, the first thing we did was go to the food court and eat Panda Express (which is a national chain that serves Americanized Chinese food. Still good tho!). I would've loved to have had a buffet, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be this time around. Maybe next time.

6. Two more stops at Fat Tuesday later (still drinking the Bellini), we stopped by the Caesar's Palace Forum Shops to do some window shopping. We walked around FAO Schwarz and played with some of the toys there. If you've ever seen BIG, the movie from the 80s with Tom Hanks, then you will know that they have a giant piano keyboard that you play with you feet. Jon was talented enough to play Chopsticks for us. It was quite impressive. Then Jon and I went in the Apple Store, where apparently, I got really touchy with the Mac computers. I picked them up and rubbed them against my face and confessed my love for the new MacBook and MacBook Pro. My friends were convinced that I was wasted... but they don't realize that I do this every time I walk into an Apple Store. lol. We also stopped by other high-end, luxury brand stores such as Armani and Coach. In the following picture, you will see me in the Coach store, bright red in the face and completely drunk.

I'm holding a Coach purse for some reason, and Kelly is there to make fun of me

7. After we are through with the Forum Shops, we walked over to T.I. (or Treasure Island) to meet up with Chris and his buddies. We get there and knock on their suite door. We can already hear that there was a party going on. When he opens the door, we are hit with an unbearably humid room. They had crammed 20 people into the suite so that they could party and get drunk. And this suite was not big. It was only called a suite because it had double doors and two bathrooms. Other than that, it seemed actually smaller than our room at the MGM Grand. Chris greeted us loudly - could definitely tell he was drunk. And then he introduced us to all of his friends. One in particular, Jon was very fond of. Tall white guy, with dark features and an awesome body. He was actually shirtless and wearing board shorts when we walked in because they had come from the pool not too long ago. And in those board shorts, we could all see something quite big in there! So I'm really pissed off about what I'm about to write about.

I get a phone call from Miles because Miles and ML had been on the road for over 3 hours trying to avoid traffic from the California wildfires. They had to take a long detour that they were unfamiliar with and they needed my iPhone to tell them where they were. Because the room was so loud, I had to step outside to talk to them. About 5 minutes later, I walk back into the room, where INSTANTLY Jon comes at me, jumping for joy. While I was away, Board Shorts Boy had gone into the bathroom to change out of his board shorts. Jon was standing right outside the bathroom. But Board Shorts Boy didn't close the door and he just dropped his shorts. Jon was in the perfect spot to see all of this. And Board Shorts Boy didn't mind... probably too drunk to care. But Jon saw him in all his glory. And apparently he was BIG. sigh... I'm pissed off because I totally missed it. And it's all Miles fault for calling me at the worst possible time!! So mad! I wanted to see penis too! Oh well, ... it was for the better because for the rest of the trip, Jon was just completely obsessed with Board Short Boy and I probably would've been too if I was there to witness the dropping of the shorts.

(left to right) Board Shorts Boy (with clothes) and Jon
Jon secretly wished that Board Shorts Boy was gay

8. Miles and ML finally arrive in Vegas after 7 hours and 42 minutes of driving (when it should've only taken them ~4 hours in normal traffic time). But their determination to have a good time with us in Vegas got them through it and they made it just in time to go out on the town! ML was the driver and I have no idea how she found the energy to go out after driving for that long, but I guess she was just THAT excited to have fun! And we were excited to have them with us as well!

(left to right; top) Kelly, Jon, ML, Eric
(bottom) Me, Miles
About to go out on the town!

9. To start our night, we went to Planet Hollywood (of course) to get more booze at Fat Tuesday. Got myself another Bellini and we all did one jello shot together to celebrate all of us being their together. It was cherry flavored AGAIN. WHY do they do that? I just swallowed it. Gross, but did its job. Pretty soon, I was drunk again, and I started to talk loudly. So instead of going to a club right away, we decide to play some slots in the casino at Planet Hollywood. I was all for it because my FAVORITE slot machines was there: Monopoly Money Grab!! It's this amazing high tech slot machine where it is touch screen and very interactive! The best part is when you get 3 "Chance" Bonus cards in a row and you get to play this Bonus where the characters of Monopoly jump up on the screen and grab money. And whatever money amount they grab is the amount of credits I win. This was a penny slot machine, so each credit is only work 1 cent. But, I ended up winning over 2700 credits on the bonus game, giving me $36 to cash out! I had only put in $5 to start! And when I went over to my friends to tell them that, I told them "I won 5 times the amount that I put in!!" And at first, they were so happy, but then Jon had this puzzled look on his face and he said... "Don't you mean 7 times the amount?" And then I thought about it, and agreed with him. And THAT'S when you know I'm drunk... when a Math teacher couldn't do simple multiplication... LOL

Here I am with the Monopoly Money Grab, my FAVORITE slots game EVER!

10. Upon exiting the Planet Hollywood to make our way over to the Paris Hotel and Casino, we come across this water feature on the side of the Planet Hollywood. It has a stead stream of water flowing down a wall lit up with many small white LED lights. Kelly and ML had taken pictures in front of this before in a previous trip to Vegas, so they suggested we all take a picture in front of it as well. When the picture is taken, it creates a cool silhouette of all of us. And I'm SOO glad we took the pictures because it turned out AMAZING. We didn't ask anyone to take a picture of all of us, so Kelly and I took turns taking the picture. And then I came home and photoshop-ed the two pictures together so that we'd all be in it. So here's the final outcome. It's my absolute FAVORITE picture ever and has become my default picture in all my profiles online. (well, except this one)...

(Left to right) Eric, Miles, Kelly, Me, ML, and Jon
I look like I'm taking a crap... but I still think we look... what's the word?.. FIERCE! lol

11. We arrive at the Paris Casino and proceed to their club, Risque, to try and get in because all we wanted to was have fun and dance! When we get there, they tell us immediately that we were welcome to just go up to the club with no charge since it was already later in the night. We jump on the opportunity and head up to the club. Risque is smaller, but still had a nice size dance floor. The club was set up nicely with the bar area in the front of the club and the dance floor in the back, slightly elevated. Good lighting and the music was already great as we walked in. A good dance beat, you know? So the 6 of us are dancing with each other and just having a great time. Then ML leans in to all of us and says, "Um... do you guys notice that we're the only non-Indian people here?" HAHA! I look around, and all I see are middle eastern people dancing and having a great time. And then we all notice at the same time that we've been dancing to Indian/Bollywood music and that everyone in the club knew the words to it and was singing along! LOL. We thought we had crashed some private party of something, but noone was kicking us out or minding that we were there. So we just continued to dance and have a great time. We just had a great laugh about it and it's one of those things that we won't forget about our trip.

If you can't tell... I'm pretty drunk. But NO, I'm not THAT red. It was just the light on me at that moment.
And that's ML, with her amazing body, dancing with me. SO fun, even though I kinda look like an idiot

12. During my time in Vegas, I drunk text-ed Davie (who I came out to before, described in this post). It was amazing, and I'll just let you read the actual texts:

Me: Davie! I heard that you are well endowed! Jon saw it in the bathroom and got turned on. DAVIE!! I want to see it! Will you show me when I get home?

Davie: LOL! Omg, u drunk asses! And Jon... ur gross! He did not! I never change in front of anyone!

Me: He saw you thru the cracks of the stalls when you're changing.

Davie: Lol. What a lie!

Me: Davie I want to see your dick, ok? And he's serious. He saw you.

Davie: I don't believe him! Was he talking crap? :-(

Me: No. he just said you are real hung. He peeked through the stalls from the outside. He didn't know it was you until you walked out.

Davie: LOL. Too much. You bitches

Me: Davie! I love you!

Davie: Love you, too. Be safe and have fun.


13. So second night, the 6 of us shared a room that only had two queen beds. Right when we got back to the hotel, Eric basically collapsed on the round. So it was decided that Eric would be one of two sleeping on the floor. We gave him blankets and a pillow and he stayed in that position for the rest of the night. Miles volunteered to be the other one sleeping on the floor. I slept in a bed with Kelly and Jon slept in the other with ML. Secretly, I wanted to be in the same bed with Jon so that I could cuddle at night with him. But we were already in this arrangement from the night before (Kelly requested to sleep in the bed with me instead of Jon because she was afraid that he'd be too drunk and kick her out of bed. lol). I just wanted some cuddling because I've been sleeping in a bed by myself for so long. But I guess it wasn't meant to be. And then in the morning, Miles jumped up onto our bed when Kelly went to use the bathroom for a bit. So the three of us slept in the same bed together. It was the closet to cuddling that I got. ;)

Me and Miles take a pic as we wake up in the morning

So that's my Vegas weekend! As you can see, I had so much fun with my friends. I'm so glad that I decided to blow off my second job at the high school and go to Vegas. It was basically my FIRST time getting drunk to the point where I'm not sick and throwing up and just letting loose and having a great time. I feel like I now know my limit and I shouldn't worry about getting sick when drinking alcohol. And now I know what drinks I should order too. Drink of choice: MIDORI SOUR! yum! Doesn't taste like alcohol at all. In fact, it tastes like a Green Apple Jolly Rancher. Drank a few of those during my Vegas trip too. ;)

Alright, well this post has been long enough. Wonder if you all spent the time to read all of it. :P

My Cousin and My Day

So, I knew my mom wouldn't drop the subject. At breakfast this morning, my mom once again asked if I was going to call up my cousin to give him my address. ARGH, so frustrating. She really doesn't understand that I like my alone time and my TV time.

But I've thought about it a little more. Next week, Monday - Wednesday, I'm going to be going to work from 8:30pm to 12:30am. Most likely, I will go out to Denny's afterwards too. So I probably won't be home until late, when I will want to just sleep. SO, I'm thinking that my cousin can come over and crash on my couch on those nights. If he doesn't mind me coming home late at night, then I guess it will be alright with me. And it takes a lot to wake me up in the morning, so as long as he's not stomping around like an elephant and playing loud music in the morning, then I'll be fine too. I'll just give him my extra key for those days.

I guess I'll call him up and let him know. And then I'll still be my mommy's good son.

After breakfast, I went to the pediatrician's with my mom and my little nephew. He's about 15 months old now and had to go in for his flu shot and other vaccinations. He's a little cutie. But he's starting to get a little troublesome. Taking after his 4 year old sister, I guess. She's definitely a handful. I'm hoping she grows out of her whining and crying soon! But yeah, my nephew of course cried during the shots, but it only lasted about 10 seconds and we were done and out of there.

I then drove back to my area and got a haircut... at Supercuts. I know, I know... Supercuts its horrible! But it's cheap and I don't need too much done to my hair.. so I go there. But now it's a little shorter than I wanted it to be. I guess I should've just shown him the picture of me that I keep in my iPhone, so it's my fault for being lazy.

Later, I went to dinner with Miles and my ex, Jen. We went to eat RAMEN! Japanese noodles. Yeah, like Top Ramen instant noodles. But the REAL kind. lol. It was so very good. Just a good time with friends. We dropped Jen off and then went to Blockbuster to get the new Tinker Bell movie and this other gay movie, "Kiss Me Guido." But alas, our night to be gay fairies was not meant to be as both movies were not available. So we got "Baby Mama" instead. I had not seen it before but wanted to so I was glad that Miles found it.

I'm back home now. We'll probably start Baby Mama soon but we're both on our MacBooks right now just browsing around and relaxing. He wants me to download some porn on his computer because he knows I'm a subscriber to some sites. LOL.

Still gotta pack for Vegas! Leaving at around noon! Can't wait! WOO!

Vegas, Baby!

In less than 36 hours, I'll be driving up to Las Vegas with my friends in my awesome black, gas efficient, sexy Prius! LOL. I just wanted to rub it in that I have a Prius that costs me less than $20 to fill up my tank, which I do every 1.5 - 2 weeks. HEHE.

But yeah... Vegas, Baby! Me and 7 of my friends (including Jon, Miles, and Kelly) will be sharing a teeny tiny room at the MGM Grand.. but who cares right? We won't really be in our room that often any way! And I'm just excited to be going out with friends. We might be going to some clubs, not sure. I think we're just winging it the entire weekend. Nothing really planned. Don't think we're seeing any shows cuz we're all broke. So just doing whatever we want to do. And just getting drunk! LOL. And, as you all know now, it's not that hard to get me drunk!

I'm also thinking of telling everyone that's gonna be on the trip with me that I'm gay. Hopefully it just comes up somehow... like some miraculous segue will happen and it'll just come out. But if not, I'll fit it into some conversation somehow...

Friend: Hey, so what time is check-in for the hotel?
Me: I think right around the time that I'm gay.

Something like that? I don't know.... lol.

In other news, I wanna wish AJ a speedy recovery. What happened with him should NEVER have happened. What year do we live in people!? Why do people still have so much hatred. It's so ridiculous. And I really want him to recover sooner because I know he was looking forward to having some "fun" with his bf. :P But now, with broken ribs, it's gona be hard for him to do that for a while. Poor guy... GET WELL SOON AJ!

Money, Gum, and a Date

Since I slept at 4:30am the night before, I don't wake up until 12:30pm. So there goes half the day. Upon waking up, I feel compelled to check my bank account and am horrified to find that I have no money. Well, not horrified, because I already knew that I had no money in the first place. But it puts me in a spiral of depression because I have no money and don't have a real job and can't afford anything.

What makes me even more depressed is that I know I'm going to have to call up Mom to ask her for help. You see, my Mom and Dad were the ones that insisted on me living alone in a nice place. So it really isn't my fault that I can't afford rent. They help me out each month, but this month, they didn't give me nearly as much. And I wanted to be independent and not ask for the help, but it looks like that's not possible right now. I am waiting for my paycheck from my second job but it hasn't arrived yet so I need the money ASAP. I write an email of desperation to Mom:

Mom,
Is there any way you can transfer some extra money into my account? The money you gave me this month isn't enough. Work right now is slow but it'll pick up during the Christmas season. And also my second job still hasn't paid me, so I need some money in the bank account now to pay off my bills. Thank you.
Love,
Doug

After writing the email, I still think that I need more money. So I decide to email my sister to ask her for money since she's paying me to take her online traffic school for her:

Sister,
Can I get the money upfront? I need the money ASAP to pay bills. Thank you.
Doug

Well, 2 minutes later, I get an email from her back:

Ask Mom for the money the next time you're around.

And not only did she not agree to give me the money, she CCs my Mom her reply back. So now my Mom knows I'm really desperate for money and asking around for it. ARGH! My sister is such a bitch some times! What the heck is wrong with her? Do any of you have siblings? Do they stab you in the back like that? I wish I had a sister that was on my side!

The rest of the day is pretty bland. I sit at home and watch TV. Then I go to work for all of 3 hours. I do head to Target after work because I have to return something. I walk in, hoping to see the cute boy that works at the registers. And BINGO, he's there! So I make my return, and then I walk into the store, desperately trying to remember what I needed to buy so that I can go go to his checkstand. I walk the whole entire store and can't remember what I needed!! Finally, I pass by the gum/candy aisle and take a big pack of Eclipse gum (that I keep in the car) and then head over to the cash registers. I stand in his line, staring at him the whole time. His name is Abraham. He has dark hair, dark eyes, and a cute smile. It's almost my turn in line, and then I realize I look like an idiot only buying a pack of gum at Target, so I quickly look over at the candies on the side and grab a bar of Toblerone chocolate. (YUM!)

When it's my turn, he looks up at me and says "Hi. How are you?" I say I'm fine, and I continue to look at him. "$4.82, please." Ok... so I hand him a $20 bill. He makes the change, takes the receipt, places them in my hand, and says, "Thank you, have a good night," all with a smile on his face. :) I smile, and I walk out the store.

Isn't it pathetic that I had to go find something to buy just to check out cute boys? Sigh...

I guess I'm working on that though. A few days ago, I was on gay.com and someone sent me an instant message through their new Messenger thing. We talked about Prop 8 and I found out that he was a head volunteer working at the polls. I really admired all the work he was doing for it. Although we didn't get the results we wanted, it's great to know that so many people cared and that we did all that we could. Anyway, been talking to him online now (we have each others' AIM) and I think we might be going on a date on Saturday night. Only problem is I have a wedding to attend that day. It starts at 4pm, but I don't know when it will end. But I'm thinking it won't end THAT late. We can maybe do something at night for the date. He had suggested going to see Changeling in the theaters. But when I told Miles, he said it was a horrible idea. Dates should be used to get to know the other person, and a movie doesn't allow for that at all. So I messaged him and asked if he would want to do dinner or something before the movie. He said "possibly." Don't know what that means... But I explained to him that I wanted to get to know more about him, and being inside a movie theater won't let me do that. And then he agreed. I told him that I would give him a call on Saturday to let him know when I would be free after the wedding.

So yeah -- I guess I have a date! I'm really nervous actually. I just don't think I do well with new people. I find it hard to talk with someone I don't know. I don't know what to talk about most of the time. And I'm such a boring person that there's not much to talk about. So I'm just worried that it's going to be a real awkward time. Hopefully he'll do a lot of the talking or something. Argh -- I haven't been on a date since the night with Jamie. And that's with someone that I kinda already knew. And so if we don't count Jamie, I haven't been on a real date with someone new in 6 years. What the hell!? I'm gonna be a horrible date.... but wish me luck any way.

Halloween: Round 2

So I didn't have nearly as much fun in the block party as the smaller party. I think that proves that I'm definitely not a party animal. There were probably 150-200 people at this block party but I think just being in that environment didn't make me very comfortable. Plus, I felt lost when I wasn't walking around with my friends. I knew a lot of people at the party, but only a few that I wanted to actually stay with. So most of the night, I was just hanging on to my friends like a little puppy dog. Plus, I don't drink. I was the DD for the group. So just being around people who were completely wasted out of their minds was not fun for me.

There WERE a lot of great looking boys there though! However, I didn't feel comfortable going up to them to talk to them or dance with them. I didn't even feel comfortable checking them out because I had a bunch of friends there that don't know that I'm gay. So I really just kept to myself the whole time. And it was kind of a downer...

At the end of the night, as I was driving home, Miles asks me if I had fun. All I could say was, "It was OK." I really don't think I had fun at all... Why is it so hard for me to have fun? I just hate myself for being so uptight some times. I wish I was more outgoing, but it's definitely easier said than done. And not being able to tolerate alcohol also sucks. All these people drinking, letting loose, letting their inhibitions go... I won't ever be able to be like that because my body just physically cannot take the alcohol. With the smallest bit of booze, my body gets REAL red and hot and then my heart feels like it's going to pound out of my chest. It's ridiculous....

So unfortunately, I don't have any fun stories to tell about my Halloween parties... Only a few nice pictures to prove that I was actually a part of it. I guess by actually making it out to the party is my first step at becoming a more outgoing me. But what is it going to take to finally get me to let loose and have fun?

Halloween (Round 1): Quick Update

Ok, so I promised a full update with pics and everything, but I'm going to save that until I'm done with Round 2 of Halloween. Last night was a party at my friend's house. More intimate and close friends. Tonight is a big Halloween BLOCK PARTY so there are going be TONS of people there. Can't wait!

Last night, I took 250 photos!! haha. So I'm thinking I'll take at least that many tonight.
Here's a picture to show you my costume. (ok, I'm not gonna lie.. I look pretty good in some of these pics! hehe) Here I am taking a picture with Michelle Obama! (Miles was Barack Obama, but our pictures together didn't show off my costume, so I'm not posting those lol)


So I forgot to bring my clipboard into the party... would've made it a lot better. But the shirt says "COACH" on the front there if you can't see it, and it says COACH again bigger on the back. HEHE.. can't wait to show it off again at the block party tonight! WOO!

My (Gay) Day Off

Wow I think I might have had one of the gayest days of my life today.

I started the day wanting to get a Mystic Tan (those fake spray tans). This is in preparation for Halloween because I don't want to have a farmers tans on my arms or, worse, white legs! So I exfoliated and moisturized my body to get ready for the tanning. Then I called up the tanning place and asked about the whole process and she let me know that the tans last up to 3-5 days.. hm. Well, my parties aren't until Friday and Saturday, so it would be too early to get it today. So then I decided against going. But STILL, I exfoliated! and moisturized!

And then I went and ran some errands with Jon. We went to the new Target store that they built down the street from where we live. I went in and could NOT remember what I needed to buy. I walked out with deodorant and tweezers. Yes, TWEEZERS. lol. Oh, it gets gayer.

We then drove down to Best Buy because I've been wanting this DVD for a while now: Celine Dion, A New Day (her show in Vegas). Sigh. Yes, I'm a big closet Celine fan. She's amazing, and you all know it. Bought the DVD for $16.99, and then Jon and I decided that we wanted to continue our gay day and watch a movie in the theaters. What movie, you ask? Going along with the theme of the day, you MAY have guessed it already... Yes, folks... High School Musical 3: Senior Year!



It actually was REALLY enjoyable. I'm a little bias because I work for Disneyland and everything. But, I liked it a lot. Really entertaining and the dancing was real good. Can't wait until it comes out on DVD!

After the movie, I drove back to my apartment, invited Miles over, and we watched the Celine DVD. Amazing singing. Amazing choreography. Amazing stage. Amazing everything. Celine Dion is .... I can't believe I'm using this word ... FIERCE! But the perfect word to sum up my incredibly gay day. And I loved every minute of it. :)

My Birthday

Disclaimer: Some parts of this blog post are sexually explicit ;)

First, thanks to those who wished me a happy birthday ;)

So on this Friday, I stay up chatting with Barry on Yahoo Messenger until 6am. We find out that we have a lot of the same tastes in music. We start swapping some MP3s, and I find out that you can give songs as gifts on iTunes! Barry sends me two songs through iTunes as a birthday present and I am so thankful. He's so cute for sending me something for my birthday. And I thank him from the bottom of my heart for spending money on me.

After the chat and sleep, I wake up at 12 noon and start my day off with some lounging on the couch. I open up my laptop and go through my routine of checking MySpace, Facebook, and the blogs. Then I open up an internet gay dating hookup site and browse through the profiles. I find a guy that more or less fits my "type": young, athletic, white boy with blonde hair and a good smile. So I send him a message to say hi. Not too much later, I receive a message back asking how I was doing and if I go to 24 Hour Fitness. So through a few rounds of messages back and forth, I tell him that yes, I have a membership, and sure I'll meet him there. I don't usually do this. And by "this", I mean I don't usually agree to random hookups. But I figure, hey, it's my birthday. I should do something fun!

I drive out to the gym and I enter the locker room. Immediately, I see 4 or 5 really hot, half naked guys getting dressed/undressed. Of course I also see 4 or 5 not so attractive guys as well, but I ignore them and focus (without being obvious, of course) on the hot ones. I get undressed as well, feeling completely inadequate compared to all the hotties, which just motivates me to go to the gym more often now, and put on my swim trunks and go out to the pool. I spot him doing some laps in the pool so I take the lane next to him and also do some laps. Swimming is good for my scoliosis, and I have lots of fun swimming - I don't know why I don't do it more often. Back to Swimming Hottie...., we do some continuous laps and we find ourselves taking breaks at the same time right next to each other. We take some glances at each other and make eye contact a few times. He then gets out of the pool and walks over to get into the jacuzzi. I follow suit after doing a few more laps. More glances and awkward eye contact. Other people enter and exit the jacuzzi. We finally give each other the signal to get the heck out of there. So I go back in the locker room and see more hotties down the locker aisles. One of them is checking himself out in the mirror. I would too if I had a body like that! Yum. I get dressed and see Swimming Hottie walking out, so I follow.

I follow him down to a quiet place outside and he tells me that he lives just down the street but his roommates are home. Darn. So I ask if he wants to exchange numbers, so we do. And I head back to my car, trying to decide what else to do for the rest of my birthday. As I put my gym bag in the trunk of my Prius, I get a text from Swimming Hottie: "Wanna fool around in your car?" I respond, "Sure." So I pick him up and we drive across the street to a parking structure and drive up to the top floor. I park, leave the car on of course, and we go about having some fun. He reaches over and starts to take off my shorts. I do the same and he's already hard as a rock. He leans over and we make out with each other for a while. It's still a weird sensation to feel stubble when I kiss but I think I quite enjoy that. And then he leans over and starts giving me a blowjob. He comes back up after about a minute or two and I reach over and play with him. I'm about to lean over to reciprocate, but he tells me to stop jerking him, and then 2 seconds later, he starts cumming. If it wasn't clear before, we had only parked maybe 4 minutes prior to this. Sigh... I'm still pretty hard so I just start jerking myself off. After he finishes and cleans up, he reaches over to finish me off. I just try to cum as quick as possible because it's just awkward now and I kind of want to laugh out loud at him for cumming so quickly. I drive him back to the gym because he rode his bike and I drop him off. Not so sure I'll meet up with him again... but I guess it was still fun to do something that I don't usually do. Plus it gave my confidence and ego a much needed boost.

And since I drove out to Costa Mesa, I decide to head out to the Apple Store there to check out the newly updated MacBooks and MacBook Pros. I find them to be incredibly sleek and sexy! I think I might have cum a second time as I play with these incredible machines. Hehe. But unfortunately, I can't afford to even pay for a nice dinner, so I'm going to just have to be satisfied with my current, outdated MacBook for the time being.

I also visit the Sports Chalet next door to buy accessories for my Halloween costume! After a few days of thinking of concepts and designing and searching on the internet (and some inspiration from Ja over at Gym Ra(n)t), I finally decide that this year, I'm going to be a P.E. Teacher! Of course, a sexy, pervy, hot P.E. Teacher. ;) So basically, I buy wrist bands, a headband, and whistle. I already have long tube socks and some sneakers. And I'm getting a pair of hot short shorts from InternationalJock.com - and this is what they look like:

If only I looked like that!!

I'm just deciding on what to wear for a top. Something tight and sexy. Maybe a sleeveless T. But should I print some sort of logo or anything on it? Will I need to in order to convey the P.E. Teacher look? Or will everything else be good enough? I'm going to carry around a clipboard for pictures, but I'm ditching that when the party begins. But I'm REALLY excited about going to my two planned Halloween parties this year! I just need to make sure to head out to the beach to tan my legs if I'm going to wear those short shorts! That, or get some bronzer!

The rest of the day, I hang out with the ex-girlfriend. And then I have a nice dinner with close friends at Chili's. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but I'm an ultra-lightweight when it comes to alcohol, but I decide that my birthday is an appropriate to get a drink. So I leave it up to my friends to choose a drink for me. The only rule is that they have to pick a drink where they don't think I can taste the alcohol, because if I taste it, it's guaranteed to come back up. So they order the Reggae Sunsplash. I don't even know what's in it, but I drink it and it tastes good. So I drink some more. But within a minute, my face turns bright red. And the next few minutes, my friends take pictures of my incredibly flushed face.

I get home after the dinner and decide that since I'm still dressed up nicely from my dinner that this is as good a time as any to take some pictures of myself. I snap about 10-15 pictures, keep about 8, and am now posting one for y'all.


I quickly upload this photo to the internet dating hookup site and start browsing again. I find another boy fitting my type and proceed to message him as well. To my surprise, I get a response. 2 out of 2 for the day. He asks me how I was doing, so I tell him I was doing pretty well and that I just had dinner with my friends for my birthday. He then wishes me a happy birthday and tells me that he thinks that every guy should get a blowjob on his birthday. Hmmm... again, not something that I would do normally, but since it is still my birthday for another hour, I play along. After a few more messages back and forth, I agree to having some fun with him. Then he tells me, "Well, it's pretty late tonight and I have to work tomorrow." Failure... Or so I thought. After the "pressure" of meeting up was gone, we continue to send each other messages back and forth. We swap pictures of ourselves, G-rated and some body shots. We then schedule a time where we can meet up, which will be this Wednesday night. And we swap phone numbers so we can text each other. By this time, it's about 3:00am, so the "I have to work tomorrow" thing was just a lie, but I'm glad he did because I probably would have felt REALLY uncomfortable meeting him without getting to know him more. Swimming Hottie was different because I met him at a public place, but this guy I would be meeting him either at his place or my place. Anyway, I get a text from him at 3:30am asking me for a picture of my cock hard. I think, what the heck, why not? So I take a quick one on my iPhone and send it to him (and I make sure to delete it right away because I know my friends/family like to play with my iPhone... so Miles and Jon - you won't find anything naughty on my iPhone! LOL). He texts me back a few times to tell me that I'm cute and hott (definite ego-booster) and then he asks if I can take a picture of me cumming. So I tell him I can do one better and I give him my xtube channel. (Not going to publicize my channel here tho) He says he really enjoyed it and that he is really looking forward to having some fun with me on Wednesday. I must say that I'm looking forward to it too! And then all of a sudden, it's 4:30am and I decide to call it a night and end my birthday celebration because I'm dead tired.

But all in all, for an unplanned birthday, I had a pretty exciting day, wouldn't you say? A sort of low key, yet adventurous and fun birthday. Looking forward to seeing what's in stored for me this year!

The Wedding

So Saturday was the wedding. Here's the previous update on the wedding if you haven't read the drama. Our friends decided to just go and make the best out of the night and just go with the flow. A bunch of us got together at my apartment to get ready and have some wine before we left for the ceremony. Here we are all dressed up and ready to go

(left to right) Bethany, Miles (Milo), Katy, me, N

There I am second from the right with my white shirt, black tie, black coat, blank pants, and CHARCOAL grey vest. I must say I looked spiffy. And all my friends agreed. Made me feel a little better about myself.

And by the way, I'm just going to stop thinking of nicknames or aliases for my friends because they're not going to find my blog and it's too much of a hassle thinking of and remembering aliases for all the people I want to talk about. So unless their name is super unique, I won't be using initials or aliases anymore. Ok.. now back to the wedding.

Like I said, we had some wine, and then drove over to the Disneyland Hotel, where the ceremony was being held. And being the cheesy performers that we are, we decided to have a photo shoot as we walked down the parking lot.

Aren't we the biggest nerds ever? We gotta work on our modeling skills, even though it does look like Miles is definitely ready for catalog already. We walk into the waiting area and we immediately start looking at what everyone is wearing. TUX MY ASS! Not one person was wearing a tux or anything resembling a tux. Not even the fathers. They were all wearing their nice suits and a nice black tie. Not a bowtie. A regular tie. What the heck was Drew (DarkD) smoking?! So now we're definitely dressed for the part - must say we all looked REAL good compared to many others.

Then it was time to walk over to the Rose Gardens. One of the wedding coordinators is our friend that we work with and she informed us that the floral designer was the same guy who designed Eva Longoria and Tony Parkers wedding!! And you can definitely see that Drew and Colin ([Fiance]) spent that money in these pictures.



The wedding was really touching. They had some family members come up and do some readings of poems about love and marriage. But it was a good length of time, so not boring, and it was just a beautiful setup. I wish their microphones were turned up a little higher though because I couldn't really hear them too well. But they made their vows and sealed them with a kiss. And we all clapped and were happy for them.

We were walked over to the Grand Californian Hotel and had some hors d'oeurves before we were let into the reception hall. Those appetizers were SO good. I ate it all and had seconds and thirds. I'm such a fat bitch....

After eating all that, we sat down at our table and they announced the entrance of the two grooms. It was dark but I tried to take some pictures. I think it actually turned out nicely because the light and the shadows on them in the picture makes it look cool. See for yourself.

Colin (left) and Drew (right)

The food was absolutely exquisite and scrumptious! They had mixed greens with a creamy balsamic vinegarette. And the main dish was a NY Strip Steak that was seasoned and cooked to perfection in a mustard Merlot sauce. Wow! After dinner, we of course got on the dance floor and partied it up. Drew and Colin came up to us and we all congratulated them. Drew gave me a big hug and told me that I looked good. THAT'S RIGHT I look good! Glad he acknowledged it. So I forgave him for all the douche-iness.

Bethany and me, having fun on the dance floor

It was a late wedding. The ceremony started at 7:30pm and so we didn't leave the reception until 12am. Exhausted and slightly drunk, Miles and N stayed over at my place and we all conked out real quick.

The next day, we lounged around my apartment for a good part of the morning and early afternoon. We finally decided to make use of our day around 3:00pm and head out to Disneyland for a fun day NOT working. We watched our friends in the parades and then went on a few rides. As we were waiting for the first parade, we saw Drew and Colin on the opposite side of the street and we yelled for them and waved hi. Drew runs across the street and starts talking to us. But Colin was apparently too good for us to attempt to cross the street. He stood on the other side with his snobby collar popped on his snobby baby blue polo shirt and his snobby bermuda shorts. Didn't even wave Hi to us. Just looked down at his Blackberry and attempted to look busy. Drew promised us that he'd call us after the parade, but guess what?... he never did.

I have a feeling that we've officially lost one of our good friends...