Thursday, September 4, 2008

What I Want to Say

J,

You're a jerk for "smiling" at me.
You're a jerk for emailing me and chatting with me.
You're a jerk for inviting me to watch TV with you.
You're a jerk for being so cute.
You're a jerk for having a great conversation with me.
You're a jerk for sharing your story with me.
You're a jerk for holding my hand.
You're a jerk for stroking my hair.
You're a jerk for kissing me so gently.
You're a jerk for holding me so tight when we slept.

I wish you would email me.
I wish you would text me.
I wish you would call and talk to me.
I wish you would realize how much I like you.
I wish you would understand that I'm head over heels for you.
I wish you were ready for a relationship.
I wish you were willing to have a long distance relationship.
I wish you didn't live so far away.

I want to get to know you more.
I want to be able to talk to you.
I want to be your shoulder to lean on.
I want to give you a hug.
I want to tell you that you're an amazing guy.
I want to kiss you like you kissed me.
I want to cuddle with you when we sleep.

I need to realize you're too far away.
I need to take my mind off of you.
I need to realize there are other guys out there.
I need to get over you.

DL

2 comments:

Joshua said...

Are you COMPLETELY positive that you're into J? Or are you possibly just into the idea of the relationship that J could have represented?

I think it's hard for you to let go of J because of its transient nature. But just be aware that you might be desiring what he represents, not necessarily he himself.

DL said...

That's interesting to think about. I think you are correct to assume that I AM into the idea of the relationship, but I also do believe that I was into J himself. We spent a lot of time talking in emails and then also when we met up, we talked for a long while. We had a lot of things in common and I really enjoyed his company. AND he was damn cute too. ;)