Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Vacation Over

I'm sitting in the airport in Orlando right now, just pretty much depressed that my vacation is over. I had a GREAT time and there's lots to blog about. Just wish it didn't have to end. And I haven't had real internet durign my time here so I have so much to catch up on (emails, blogs). Gotta get back into the swing of things... school and work start back up right away. Sigh...

Thursday, June 11, 2009

My Night

As I have said before, I write this blog because it's mainly a way for me to remember my life if I so choose to look back on it in the future. So I may sometimes go into details that you readers may not be all too excited to read. If that happens with this post, I apologize in advance. And also, I'm thinking the post is going to get pretty sexually explicit...

So it's 10:00pm, and I'm supposed to text Jason. I wait until 10:02, because I don't want to seem desperate by texting right at 10:00. lol. In no time, he responds by telling me that he's getting off work and that he can head over straight from there. So I give him my address and instructions on how to get in the apartment building. I'm freaking out now, because he's going to be here any minute. I had actually spent 2 or 3 hours beforehand cleaning up the entire apartment. I did all my dishes, wiped down the tables, cleaned the bathroom, dusted, took out the trash, made the bed, etc. And up until the the moment he came in the door, I was still trying to tidy things up. I even made popcorn to get ready for the movie. :P

I hear the knock on the door and I freak out, naturally. But I walk up to the door and open it. He's still in his work clothes: a blue buttoned up shirt, a blue pattern, and black slacks. He walks in and he comes in for a hug and a kiss on the cheek. And thank goodness he did it because that was something else I was nervous about.. I didn't know if I should move in for a hand shake, a hug, a kiss.... so whew! He took care of that for me!

After he walked in the door, I feel like my butterflies went away. I just began to talk to him. And he was quite easy to talk to. I asked about work and his day. He did the same. As we talked, he got out the "Bedtime Stories" DVD, which I popped into the DVD. He got comfortable on my 3-seater couch, sitting on one side. I sat down in the middle seat, not too close to him, but close enough where we could be touching if we wanted to.

We let the movie start, but we were still talking about our day and other conversation starters. We just got to know each other better.. the basics I guess. If there were points in the movie that were worth discussing, we would talk about it. Our conversations were just very natural and I didn't need to try too hard to find things to talk about. THANK GOODNESS! Because, again, that was another thing that I was nervous about.

And YES, we did finish watching the movie all the way through. LOL. However, 3/4 of the way in, he said he wanted to put his feet up after a long day of work, so he laid himself across the couch, grabbed me and put his arms around me, and had me lie on top of him (not in a dirty way, guys!). I felt comfortable in his arms. And it was just cute how he made the excuse that his feet were tired. He could've just put his feet up on the table in front of him, so it was obviously an excuse to get closer to me. :)

After the movie, we decided to just watch some TV... still in the laying down position. but my neck was starting to bother me so I kinda stretched it a bit and it cracked a little. So Jason says, "Ouch, that sounds like you need a massage!" So he had me lie down face down as he got on top me (still not dirty yet, guys!). Then he says, "Well, you can't expect me to massage you with your shirt on though." So he had me take off my shirt as he proceeded to give me a really relaxing 10 minute massage. Then out of nowhere he started kissing up and down my back. Of course it felt nice. And the stubble on his face gave it a bit of new sensation as he kissed my body... I sort of liked it! Pretty soon, he was kissing up to my neck very sensually. I loved every minute of it. Finally, his kisses made it to my mouth and we made out for a while. Again the stubble felt funny, but kinda cool too.

And then he got me off the couch, stood me up, then picked me up, carried me over to my bed, and then threw me down on it. He climbed on top me (ok, this is where it gets dirty) and then took my clothes off. I was totally hard already, of course. He also took off his clothes to reveal his thick dick... completely hard as well. YUM. He started giving me head and it felt oh so good! Then he grabbed my feet, threw them up by my head, and then ate my ass and it felt oh so good!!

I didn't want that to end, but then he got up and had me follow him into the shower. And another point for him because I LOVE shower sex! I think it's so freakin' hot! I know he wanted to get in the shower because he didn't go home to wash up after work. So he was being really considerate and wanted to be clean. ANOTHER point. ;) After he soaped and rinsed, I couldn't go down on him fast enough. So I don't have too much blowjob experience, but I'm hoping I did a good job. I couldn't take all of him (I started to gag a bit) but I tried to use my tongue as much as possible, moved my head, used my hand... And there was a lot of moaning, so it had to feel sort of good right? Then I ate my very first ass. ;) That was fun because he REALLY liked it.

After the shower, we went back to the bed and continued with the sex. ;) We 69'ed, face fucked, ate ass... all very good! Then he started fingering my ass. And I was so tight... it was almost uncomfortable. It's been WAY too long... I knew he wanted to stick his dick in my butt... but I really didn't want that to happen for the first night. He was doing everything right... everything felt good... and I'm pretty sure he expected me to say, "Fuck me!" ... but I never did it. And after a while, he got the hint. So he just continued to give me great head. He then sat on my face, which took him over the edge. He blew his load all over my chest. Then he helped me along until I blew my load as well.

We got a towel and cleaned up a bit but just laid on the bed with each other for a bit. Just holding each other. So nice. I started running my hands/fingers up and down his body and he seemed to really like it. He said his skin gets really sensitive after he cums. So that just makes me want to do it more. He flips over and I run my hands up and down his back.. and down to his butt. THAT made him go crazy. And pretty soon he was all horny and hard again. I started to hump him, pretending to fuck him. He really responded to that. I pulled his hair, pulled his head back, and kissed him. I flipped him over again, grabbed his feet, put them over my shoulder and just "fucked" him like crazy. I was all sweaty again. Like dripping. The bed was squeaking, his head was hitting the wall behind him... I felt bad for my neighbors who were probably trying to sleep.

But all that made me hard again too, so he had me sit on his face. I couldn't believe it, but I blew another load, a huge one, all over his face. I then sucked him off until he blew his load too. God, writing about this just makes me hard right now. It was so awesome.

We laid on the bed for a while after... but then he started getting up. He said he just couldn't stay over and sleep in a bed that wasn't his own. But he kept telling me how sexy I am and that he didn't want to leave me. I think that was the first time in a long time that someone called me sexy straight to my face. And it was just so nice to hear. He started getting dressed, but stopped after putting on each article of clothing to give me a kiss. God, he's so damn cute. I opened the door, he gave me a big kiss goodbye, and then he walked out. I closed the door just thinking how fun the whole night was.

So, I really intended to just have a nice night of movie watching.. but I guess I also half expected things to go further. And I was ready and willing for that. About 15-20 minutes, I get a text from him. ANOTHER point for him! I didn't have to go crazy thinking about whether or not to text him and when I should do it! His text said, "Thanks again for tonight. And did you realize we had sex for 3 hours?!" HAHA.

So I'm going to Florida for a week, but we agreed to get in contact after I get back. And also, the next morning, he IMed me just to say HI before he had to go to work. I loved that he was making an effort to just stay in contact with me. Which, I'm assuming, means that he likes me? The only thing I'm still not too sure about is whether he wants to see me again because he wants to develop more with me... or he just wants to see me again so that he can stick it in my butt... I guess we will find out later. But I really do think that I like this guy. He's easy/fun to talk to, we have things in common, and he's great in bed. Hope things work out with him...

Well, right now, I'm finishing up the packing for my trip to Florida. I've confirmed my plans to meet Bryan the first night I'm there. I have to give Jamie a text when I arrive to confirm my plans with him also. SOO looking forward to this trip! Will blog about it whenever I get a chance!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Quick Update

I didn't die. Jason wasn't a serial killer. And yes, I had a great time. :)
More details after I come home from work!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Meeting Jason

So I just wanted to respond to your comments from the last post:

I really appreciate everyone's input. It seems like everyone thinks it's a good idea to meet this guy. And I've decided that YES, I will.

I'm not nervous because I think he might be a serial killer or something (because I've chat with him before and been on cam. And he seems like a really cool, normal guy). I'm just nervous about what he thinks about me, how our conversations will be, what I will be talking about, how I'll react to his conversations.... I'm really REALLY bad with new people. I just shut down... so that's what I'm nervous about. I don't want to seem like an idiot.

He's actually coming over to my place in about 2 hours, after he gets off work. I'm so nervous!!!

This morning, we were both online after we woke up and we talked briefly. I was honest with him and I said, "I'm not going to lie, I'm a little nervous about meeting you. I haven't been on a date or anything like that in a while. But I'm excited to meet you :)" He was so cute. He responds: "We are just meeting as friends. If it turns out to be more, cool. So no reason to be nervous. You have friends over all the time."

I find that really sweet of him. I'm liking this guy more and more as we talk. I really just hope that I don't screw it up. He's coming over to watch a movie. He's bringing over "Bedtime Stories," the Adam Sandler movie. I went and bought microwave popcorn just now, and I'm going to have it ready when he comes in. :P AHHH! Wish me luck!

Online Dating Hookup Site

I've talked about the online dating hookup site quite a few times here. It's where I found Jamie, afterall. But anyway, despite all I say about it, I still go back to it every night hoping for the best. I've had many people tell me that this site just ISN'T the way to meet guys yet I never listen.

Well, three nights ago, I messaged a guy that I have actually contacted before but we both sort of ignored each other after a while. I messaged him again just to see if he'd respond or remember me. I mean, we didn't really talk much before so I wasn't expecting him to remember. And I was right, he didn't remember. He asked to see my Private picture (which is my face pic) so I unlock it for him. He tells me that I'm cute. ;) And I think he's actually pretty hot! He's white with blonde hair and green eyes (I believe). Around my height and pretty athletic. We talk about our lives, what we do, our education, and other things. We eventually exchange names, emails, and AIMs. His name is Jason. :)

The next day, I don't email him at his regular email yet. I just message him through the site again. And we go back and forth there, but then he asks if we can talk on AIM, so I agree. And then he said that since he has his hands full with laundry, he wanted to know if I have a cam so that he can keep talking. I said yes, but then I lied and said my mic was broken. (I don't like my own voice and I don't like talking... as gay+teen+sydney will attest to). So he talked on cam and I just cammed without voice. He has such a cute voice. Not too gay, yet not super manly. Just sort of playful. And he has a great sense of humor. At least the kind that I like.

Eventually he needed to take a bath and he asked if I would mind it if he just took the cam in the bath. OF COURSE I didn't mind! lol. He looked so cute in the bath and still talking to me. He started lathering up and then he stood up and then started playing with himself. I IMMEDIATELY was turned on. I could tell he was a pro at this camming thing. And I should know! hehe :P And then he asked if I liked taking baths. I told him I don't do baths, I just shower. I also slipped in that I hadn't taken my shower yet. I'm naughty, I know. Skipping some conversation, YES, I did end up showering on cam for him. It was hot. ;) And we definitely jacked off on cam together until we both came.

After the shower cam, we talked for a bit more but we eventually went to sleep. That night, I talked to a friend and expressed my concern that now my "relationship" with Jason will just be "sex cam buddies"... and I didn't want that with him. I had great conversation with him beforehand. I want an actual friendship/relationship. It was something I was thinking about while I fell asleep that night.

The next night, we see each other on AIM again. He asks if I had my mic fixed yet. For some reason, I felt comfortable enough to tell him "yes." But, before getting on cam, I said to him, "I don't want you to think that I'm just a big cam whore. I was hoping we could get to know each other a little better. I don't want everything to be about jacking off and sex." He responds, "That is nice of you. I like talking to you as well mister." That made me feel a little better about our "relationship." We did talk a bit, but we also did eventually jack off together again. Let me just say that it's SUPER hot because he likes to talk dirty on cam. Mmmmmm..... :P

So I'm supposed to meet up with him tomorrow night.... I'm supposed to text him to let him know what's up. I like the guy, but I don't know what meeting him will mean. I mean, I guess I'm not opposed to hooking up with him, but like I said before, I actually am kind of interested in him in more than just a sexual way. So I don't want us to just be sex buddies... But I guess I'm not really certain about what he wants out of this. Plus, I may have seemed like I had lots of experience by the way I was camming... but I really don't have a lot of sexual experience and I'm not sure what he's expecting out of me...

I have 2 options: 1) I could agree to meet up with him. In which case I will find out what his true intentions are... whether he's willing to work on a friendship/relationship or if he just wants to fuck. Or 2) I could just be a coward and never know and just don't text him.

Err.. what do you guys think??

Monday, June 8, 2009

Florida.... AGAIN

I seem to blog about the same things. But I guess it just goes to show that I don't like to break out of the familiar. So I'm making another trip out to Florida. I'm actually leaving in 4 days (WOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!). But I think I should preface my Florida trip with some news on New Cute Dream Boy (Bryan) and the ever so infamous Jamie.

So it's been a few weeks since I first started chatting with Bryan. And we've been steady contact through text messages and AIM. We just tell each other what's happening in our day and joke around and stuff. We seem to have the same sense of humor and we have a lot of the same interests (mainly Disney). I really enjoy chatting with him and I just hope he feels the same way. We've already made plans to meet each other during my time in Florida. And he likes to text me with things like, "You're almost here!" or "Only 4 more days!" He has me real excited about the entire trip as a whole, but a lot of that has to do with hanging out with him. We're actually going to meet up my first night there at Epcot and watch the fireworks together. :)

I'm not really sure if I'm going to invite him over to my place. I really want to because I'm attracted to him, but I'm not sure if it's too forward to invite him to my hotel room after just meeting him for the first time. But I mean, we have gotten to know each other pretty well over these past few weeks so it's not like it's a completely blind date or whatever. And really, inviting him over to my hotel room doesn't mean we're going to be doing anything naughty, right? It's just an invitation to hang out. Hey, if it goes there, I'm not going to stop it. But I think it would be nice to just have some company. So do you all think it's okay to invite him over??

In other news, I've been in contact with Jamie. Actually, when I first messaged him a few weeks ago, the first thing he says back to me is, "Hey Doug! How's my west coast boyfriend?" Not going to lie, it made me feel really nice when he said that. I don't know why he makes me feel this way after all this time. I guess it just means that I'm not fully over him. Well, I guess it's pretty obvious that I'm not over him if I'm making plans to meet up with him while in Florida. I told him my travel plans and he tells me that he's going to be making time to see me.

He tells me that he regrets not being able to be more intimate with me the last time I went out to visit. At that time, he was seeing another boy who turned out to be a big cheater. So this time he is making sure that he spends ample time with me. He said whatever is going at work or with his family during my time there, he will MAKE the time to be with me. So he's actually going to be staying over at my hotel for 2 or 3 nights. :) I don't want to admit it, but I'm really really excited about that. And the reason why I don't want to admit it is because I'm not over him. But I'm promising myself that this is going to just be a fun time with a fuck buddy kind of thing. I'm not going to let myself get all attached.

So it's 4 days away! I can't believe it! Besides the meetings with Bryan and Jamie, I'm just excited to be at Walt Disney World again. And this time, I'm staying at the really nice vacation homes that they have there. I'm staying in THREE different hotels. My first choice was to stay at the Animal Kingdom Villas where I can have giraffes outside my window. But they only had 3 out of the 5 nights available, and they were right in the middle of my travel dates. So I had to tag on 2 other reservations on the two ends. I chose the Boardwalk Villas and the Saratoga Springs Villas. Here are some pictures of these AWESOME vacation homes:

The Animal Kingdom Villas! Yes, the giraffes are really going to be THAT close!

Boardwalk Villas! OMG this looks so pretty!

Saratoga Springs exterior

I have a pretty full schedule with meeting up with Bryan and spending time with Jamie. Sooooo don't expect a blog while I'm there. I'll most definitely Twitter though, so keep an eye on the Twitter wall. And I'm DEFINITELY taking lots of pictures. With both Jamie and Bryan. My biggest regret last time was not taking pictures with Jamie. This time, I'm taking TONS. And I'll definitely post them up here!

Wish me luck with my trip!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Last Minute Vegas Trip!

This blog post is WAY overdue... but I did want to talk about it briefly. I have a few photos for show and tell. LOL. So this Vegas trip was for our friend Richard's 21st birthday! Apparently, Richard had invited Miles and he was supposed to tell me that I was invited too. This was like 2-3 weeks before the trip happened. But since Miles found out he couldn't make it, he just forgot about telling me about it. So a few days before the trip, I overheard Richard talking to another one of our friends about the trip and I was thinking, "Man, why didn't they invite me? Oh well...." And then, Richard turns to me and asks, "So how come you couldn't go?" I responded, "Oh... I didn't know about it." But YAY, I was invited! So I quickly got days off of work and packed my bags and off we went!

The trip was a whole bunch of us: Jeffrey, N, Sarah, Kevin, Michael, Richard, and his college friend Johnny. We drove in separate cars because we all couldn't fit in one. And having a Prius, I was nominated to drive. LOL. I wouldn't have it any other way though. I like driving. :) I feel like I'm in control. So along the I-15 Freeway, we decided that we wanted a little more excitement in our lives. So N rolled down the backseat windows of my car, and proceeded to pass Gummi Bears to Kevin in the lane next to us. Here is a snapshot of this amazing feat:


One of the most exciting car rides/drives to Vegas that I've ever had. :) We got to Vegas at around 1pm and we quickly checked in to our amazing 1000+ sq. feet suite at the Venetian. It was GIANT. And it had an awesome jacuzzi tub which we made good use of. After we played around with everything in the suite, we decided to go get drunk and headed out to Caesar's Palace for some Fat Tuesdays! It's basically a drink shop that serves yummy daiquiris! My favorite is the Bellini. I've blogged about it before in my last Vegas Trip post. YUMMY! The problem, though, was that I had not eaten anything. And I drank too fast. So this is what happened to me:


And there's Michael and Richard making fun of me. LOL. We had finally found some food to eat (Panda Express.. YUM!) but I was already feeling the effects of the alcohol. I just got all sleepy... I wasn't like super drunk. The food definitely helped soak up the alcohol and I was better in no time. We walked back to the Venetian and then had some fun at the pool.

There were actually some hot guys at the pool! Two of them to be exact. Amazing muscles and nice tans. Darker features. Tall. Handsome. Yum. They were swimming and playing around with, who I assume was their nephew, and I couldn't keep my eyes off of them. But then they left... too bad. But the group that I was with was eye candy enough though! I have some hot friends, I must say! We played around in the pool for a good hour. Our other friends (on their own trip) came over to visit. Here's a pic of me with Kelly (from my other Vegas trip) and N:


Oh.. and there's a random fat guy in the background of the picture. LOL. During this time, Kevin had apparently continued to drink and by the time we were leaving the pool, Kevin was completely passed out on one of the chairs. We had to practically carry him back upstairs. While Kevin was passed out, the rest of squeezed into the jacuzzi tub. Basically we were sitting around it with our feet in the water, haha, but it was still fun. We actually played, "I Have Never..." where we hold up our 10 fingers and we go around saying something we've never done before. If you HAVE done that thing, then you put a finger down. Of course, the game went from innocent to risque, with statements like, "I have never madeout with someone of the same sex." Sigh... well, we can all guess who put down all their fingers first. HAHA. The fun part of that was that two of the guys, Michael and Richard, proclaim to be "straight." So it was fun to see if they were secretive with putting their fingers down or not. Surprisingly, Michael was very upfront about a lot of it. Richard was a but more secretive. I was secretive too but people caught on.

Sidenote: I'm out to a lot of my friends now. Most everyone at work know that I'm gay, especially after I went to Gay Pride. It's nothing I hide anymore. I just don't yell it at the top of my lungs or overtly express that I'm gay. If people ask, then I will tell them.

But my friends were still surprised to see me put down fingers for certain things. Statements like, "I have never done anything sexual with more than one person," or "I have never used a dildo before" made my friends more than curious about me. However, I told them the game wasn't "20 questions" so I never elaborated on anything. HEHE. I can't tell my friends EVERYTHING about me!!

I won't bore you with more details of the day, but the rest of the night we went to Cheesecake Factory and celebrated Richard's birthday at midnight by singing him Happy Birthday really loud in public. HEHE. Fun times.

The next day, I went to the pool with Kevin bright and early (10am) to catch some rays. Definitely got darker. I LOVE a nice tan. Thank goodness I tan real easily! At around 11:30am, our other friends finally wake up and we get ready for another day of drinking!! We first head out to the Mirage Weekend Brunch Buffet. YUMMO! I ate sooooooo many crab legs. HAHA. I love buffets!! Then it was off to the Planet Hollywood for more Fat Tuesdays! This time, I drank EVEN faster. Got WAY drunker. LOL. So by the time I got home, I had a GIANT headache and needed water real bad.


I was fine after I drank that whole bottle of water. :) But I was still pretty inebriated. And all of us being drunk and zany, we decided to do a photo shoot with this thing called the "Circle Scarf" from American Apparel. We all found our own way of wearing the scarf (and barely anything else) and took pictures. Here was my best frame:


I really don't like it all that much, but I have gotten a bunch of comments from my friends about how muscular I look. YAY! I love getting comments about my growing muscles because it means my P90X program is working! I'm not posting my friends' pics, but I must say... I have some hot friends!! YUM! I want to lick them up and down so bad!! HAHAHA. I would never do that though, because they're my friends... but it's nice to fantasize about.

That night, we went to the Beatles Revolution Lounge @ the Mirage and had some fun dancing for a bit. It's not really a club, so the "dance floor" was quite small. Very crowded. But it was free, so we managed. But when drinks got spilled on my friends, we decided it was time to leave. But we did take some pictures of ourselves in the awesome sexy lighting before we left. Here I am trying to be sexy with my iPhone:


Did it work? Do I look sexy? HAHA. Don't answer that...
All in all, I had a GREAT time with my friends. Vegas just gets better every time. I ended up losing $25 on slots and that was it. I think I spent the LEAST on this trip but had the most fun. I love my friends!! Wouldn't have been the same without them!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

This is my 200th Post!...

.... now that I got that out of the way... I can stop waiting for something amazing to come along to post for my 200th and just get back to regular blogging. I have so many things that I just haven't blogged about but need to (Vegas trip, Bryan, Jamie, Florida...)

Blogs to come soon!

Friday, May 22, 2009

New Cute Boy

I have a new little crush.

So everyone knows I perform at Disneyland. Well, one day, I noticed this cute, tall, white boy watching with his friend. He was watching right where I perform and I totally performed to him the entire time. That day, I even got up the courage and went up to him to say "Thanks for coming out to watch" and gave him a high five. And he seemed like he enjoyed watching me (and our group) perform. So I was happy.

Fast forward to a few days ago, I got on my YouTube account and found a message from someone I didn't know. In the message, he says that he came to watch my parade every day he visited Disneyland during his trip and he recognized me in my videos on YouTube as the guy that performed right in front of him. I was so giddy to read that this person who messaged me was the cute, tall, white boy that I performed to!

So I replied to his messaged and we started making small talk about the parade and such. Turns out he works for Disney World and does their parades over there. We then exchanged Facebook accounts and started chatting there. Eventually we exchanged AIM accounts.

His name is Bryan. He's such a nice guy. Had nothing but compliments about our parade and my performance. Told me that he specifically picked my section of the parade to watch that day because every other time he watched, he had his video camera with him. But that particular day, he just wanted to really watch the performance. ;) I felt awesome that he chose to watch me.

I'm pretty sure we've been flirting with each other on AIM. I asked for the opinions of others and they agree there is definite flirting. I'm kinda excited for that. Bryan works in Florida but only seasonally, I believe. He's in Arizon right now with family and he goes to school there as well. He has a great sense of humor and I've discovered some common interests already.

I don't really want to think too much more of it... afterall, he's another Disney World/Florida boy (re: Jamie....), but it's just nice to be "talking" to another boy. But the curious thing is.... he just so happens to fit the description of my Dream Guy. Kinda weird how this happens just a few days after I had the dream... curious indeed.

I hope I get to know him a bit more.... chat more with him. I'm sad that I wasn't able to have too much of a conversation online with him today because I had friends over and didn't have time to chat much. And then tomorrow I'm heading to Las Vegas and staying for the weekend, so there's definitely no time for online chatting. :( But I hope we'll pick up where we've left off once I return from the trip.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Long Beach Gay Pride

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Sunday, May 17, 2009

Not So Great Hookup & Happy B-Day

Ok.. so I have no idea what came over me. Maybe I'm just super horny because I haven't been able to jerk off since Tony is staying over. But I don't know WHY I agreed to meet up with this guy. Turns out he wasn't as hot as I thought he was... and it was just an awkward situation. He walked up to my car, we greeted each other. Proceeded to talk about my car (a Prius) and then I said, "Well... I'll see ya." And that was that. YUCK. Sigh... I feel so stupid. And all this right after I dreamed about my Dream Guy... I hope I dream about him tonight. But now that I said that, I won't. BOO.

And I'd like to wish AJ a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Everyone go over to AJ's Ramblings and wish him a great 20th Birthday!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Discretion

OMG... I'm meeting a guy that messaged me online right now. We're gonna check each other out in our cars and then go from there.... lol. Yes, this is strictly a hookup. And nothing too sexual.. agree to just giving each other handjobs. HAHA. Well, wish me luck. oh jeez i'm so nervous!

My Dream Guy

I had the best dream last night. And I'm trying to remember as much as possible. I'm really not sure how the dream started, but all I know is that I met my dream guy. The dream was all about me and him, going on a date. We made plans to go watch a movie. We walked around the mall and just window shopped, arm in arm. At one point he started singing to me... not in an obnoxious way, but a very sweet, romantic way. And he was a great singer. He made me laugh with his jokes (though I don't remember what those jokes were). And then I remember clearly where we were walking down the street and I just wrapped my arms around him and gave him the biggest hug ever. Soon after, I was woken up by my alarm. I woke up with a smile on my face. :)

The interesting thing is that my dream guy wasn't the most gorgeous, most built guy. He was just a nice looking, tall guy. But I was so happy with him. It's just interesting to me that my subconscious didn't make my dream guy this hot, gorgeous, tanned, blonde, built guy... Instead, he's just an average, good looking, brunette boy.

But I just know that I was so very happy with him and he was so very happy with me. I was sad that I had to wake up, but I really couldn't help but smile thinking about it. Sigh... I just have to hope that one day my dream guy will become a reality.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Gay Pride

This weekend is the Long Beach Gay Pride Festival. It's going to be my very first Pride. I'm pretty excited! I really don't know what to expect though. All my friends tell me it's going to be fun - as long as I let it. So I'm really hoping I let my guard down and just have lots of fun. I know there will be lots of guys there!! And it's going to be a pretty warm day, so I'm anticipating a lot of shirtless guys walking around. I jokingly said that my goal is to make out with at least one hot guy there. ;) Maybe I don't want that to be a joke though. hehe.

I'm excited that Sara Bareilles is performing!! She's on my favorite artists. God, I can only imagine how many people will be there at the main stage to see her performance. But the whole thing is included in the $20 ticket, so I don't care if I have to be squished. Plus, maybe I can be squished by some hot muscle guys. HAHA. We'll stake our spot among hot guys.

I'll definitely be taking LOADS of pictures. I'll post them and write all about it once I get home from it this Sunday. Wish me luck with my goal! :P

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Star Trek

OH... so I thought that the Blogger outage was supposed to be TONIGHT.. but it's actually on Monday. HAHA... I wrote this blog post and published it like a mad man, but I guess I have more time to write it now. :P

So I went to see Star Trek tonight with Jon.. we went on a date. LOL. Not really a date. We just called it a date for fun since it seems to have become a thing to watch movies in the theater with just the two of us. But anyway, I just have to say that Star Trek was REALLY good. I really enjoyed it. Casting was great. Writing was great. Story was great. Cinematography was great. Special Effects were great. LOVED it.

Um... and I think Chris Pine (who plays Captain Kirk) is HOT!

Despite the weird "head-almost-falling-off thing" going on in this pic, he's SUPER hot!

I also enjoyed Zachary Quinto's Spock. Done well. And he really did look like a younger Leonard Nimoy. I definitely am not a Trekkie, but I did appreciate the series and the old movies. So even though some plot points may have angered the true fans of Star Trek, I was very pleased with the outcome. It was just an awesome, action-packed, funny, summer blockbuster. I think JJ Abrams (director/producer) did a fabulous job of bringing the Star Trek franchise back to life. I sure hope that he will continue to make more Star Treks with this cast!

Well it's time for bed now. I'm waking up in 5 hours to drive out to IKEA because they're giving away Gift Cards ranging from $10-$1000 to the first 1000 customers. WISH ME LUCK!!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Watching Ellen Live!

So I went to a taping of the Ellen show in Los Angeles today. Definitely had a fun time with Miles, Jon, and N. Jon got tickets to the show by checking the Ellen Show's website EVERY day. And when they had tickets available, he pounced on that. So THANKS Jon! Then a few days ago, we used our powers of deduction to find out who the guest will be on the day of our taping. We just figured it would be whoever is listed as the guest for the next day, when it airs on TV. And the guest.... Vanessa Hudgens... sigh. The un-talented star from High School Musical. We were less than thrilled. In fact, N and Miles absolutely HATE her. They had to work with her for a filming of the Walt Disney World Christmas Day Special that aired on ABC two years ago. And she was so incredibly UNPROFESSIONAL and made the filming last way longer than it needed to be. So since then, they've hated her.

But when we got there, we were pleasantly surprised and found out that her show had been previously taped! And our taping was for a future date. Our guest: Kevin Nealon, former SNL cast member and now star of Weeds on Showtime! :) He was a funny guest. Every time he told a joke, we clapped. And my hands started hurting from clapping too much. HAHA. We also got some free stuff.... An ADVIL care package (64 tablets of Advil), Weeds Season 3 DVDs, and a pair of nice in-ear headphones. :) The headphones are REALLY nice, super comfy, and have good sound quality. I'm too lazy right now to go check what brand they are... but I'm not really trying to do a commercial for them anyway.

There were some hot, good looking guys at the filming. Not too many. But a few to look/gawk at. There was one guys with really nice muscles and a hot butt. Wanted to sit near him, but they sat me about 8 rows behind him. Bummer. And then there was this other guy with his, presumably, girlfriend with muscles for days! He was huge! And he wasn't like the chubby muscles.. he was muscle muscles! YUM! Miles was drooling over him. HAHA.

Oh speaking of muscles... Hugh Jackman was the guest for Ellen on yesterday's program. We thought we had missed seeing him by one day, but it turns out his was taped a while ago too. But anyway, I think Hugh Jackman is so hot!

I watched "Wolverine" in the theaters over the weekend and I loved him in it. You know... it wasn't the best movie ever, but I thought it was entertaining. And Ryan Reynolds was way hot in it, so that was another plus.

But anyway, Miles doesn't think Hugh Jackman is hot.... I was shocked to hear him say that! How can he not think he's hot?! What's not hot about him? Good looks. Yummy muscles. Talented actor. Great singer. HOT Aussie accent. Miles is weird sometimes. We definitely have different tastes in men.. but I guess that's good cuz then we'll never fight over guys.

In sort of other news, I had to dress up for the taping of the Ellen show today and I was quite satisfied with how I looked in my outfit. I usually think that I look weird wearing a dress shirt and slacks. I just didn't seem to fit into them even though I was wearing my size. I dunno, hard to explain, but when I look in the mirror, I just felt like I didn't fill out the clothes. Well, today, I actually liked what I saw in the mirror. It MAY have something to do with the P90X exercise program and me gaining more muscles. And that makes me feel more confident about my body. Whatever it is, I liked it and I am happy about it. :)

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Friend Staying Over

In about a week and half, one of my friends who I used to work with, Tony, is staying over at my place for almost a week and a half. OMG, he's so freakin' hot. HAHA. He doesn't know I'm gay, and I'm not really sure I want to tell him. He might get freaked out. Just cuz he knows me as straight Doug. We'll see. Maybe he'll figure it out for himself.

Tony reminds me of Mitch from Sean Cody soooo much.

So yeah, he's going to be sleeping over on my couch for 9 days. And I'm not going to lie... I'm hoping to see him at least shirtless a few times. HEHEHHEE. Oh gosh, I'm so bad. Haha. My dream would be to catch him jacking off in the middle of the night. And then I'll ask him if he wants some help. =P Then my life would be complete. hahaha.

Monday, May 4, 2009

P90X

So I didn't want to blog about this until I knew I was committed and showing results. And since it's a "yes" for both, I'm going to tell you about it.

Has anyone seen those infomercials for "P90X" on TV? It's a workout program that guarantees awesome results in 90 days! Here's a LINK to the website. Basically they have a ~60 minute workout routine each day of the week on 12 different DVDs. There's a schedule that you follow that tells you which DVD to use on each day. Each DVD targets a different part of the body. There's "Chest & Arms," "Shoulders & Arms," "Legs & Back," "Yoga," "Abs," and etc. And let me tell you, each one really works you out! I'm really loving it. It's a love-hate thing actually. I hate it cuz it's hard, challenging. But I love it because it really works out my body. And OMG, the Yoga is AMAZING. I've never sweat so much in my life! Seriously works out every part of my body. I've done Yoga before, but never like this.

I'm on Week 3 of the program now. And I'm already seeing results in my arms, chest, shoulders, and back. I took some "before" pictures (and no, I'm not going to post them here because I think I look horrible in them) and I'm supposed to take pictures at the 30-day, 60-day, and 90-day mark. MAYBE I'll post the 30-day pics... maybe I'll wait until the 60-day. Anyway... I love the program. I just have to keep putting the DVDs in and keep pressing play. 1 hour each day is not a hard committment. (I do cheat and skip the cardio days because I do enough cardio at work) I'll be finishing up my 90 days in the middle of summer... when it's time for the BEACH. So I'm sort of excited to go to the beach this summer and show off my body. It's my motivation to keep going on this program. To have an awesome Beach Body to show off. :P

So wish me luck on this. And hopefully I won't get an injury that will prevent me from continuing with this program. Cuz I was doing so well with my "100 push-ups program" until I got that stupid shoulder injury. NO to injuries. YES to big muscles! hehehe.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Prince Charming

I've been feeling pretty lonely lately. I have all my friends and they're all great. But it's just not the same as having someone to be close with. Someone to cuddle with, to snuggle with, to hold, to kiss. I want someone that I can have a relationship with. I just don't know if it's ever going to happen for me. Going online to find people is just ridiculously stupid. It hasn't worked. And it won't work. I go out and I feel like noone even gives me a second look. It's pretty discouraging.

I know that many of you have given me advice on this... get myself out there. Volunteer somewhere. But will it really work? Will I find someone? If noone ever gives me a second look, why would they suddenly give me a second look there? I just don't know....

When will I find my Prince Charming?

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Mommy Issues #2

I just received a comment on my first "Mommy Issues" post from ChelseaNoob. And I just want to thank him for sharing his story with me. He has recently come out to his parents and offered some advice to me about coming out to my own parents.

But I think the biggest problem with coming out to my parents is the communication factor. At times I really do just want to come out to them and tell them how I feel and everything that's going on in my head. However, I fear that may be an impossible task. My primary language is English and I do all my thinking in English. I know what I want to say to them... but it's all in English. My parents' primary language is Chinese. When I speak to them, I try my best to speak to them in Chinese. But even in everyday language, I sometimes can't find the words I need. So coming out to them in Chinese is definitely out of the question. But I wouldn't be able to speak to them in English either, because they probably wouldn't understand half the things I'm saying to them.

It's a dilemma. I feel that when I do come out to them, I want to be able to speak from my heart, and not have something scripted. It's just another reason why I'll never be able to come out to them.