Malibu Boy

I tend to write a blog post every time I meet a new boy that has "potential." I have no idea if I'm jinxing myself or not by doing this, but I guess I always just have an urge to share. So it's been a while since Will. That ended in December. There have been two more guys that were more than just the casual one-time date. But obviously, they didn't work out.

This new boy, dubbed Malibu (cuz he lives in Malibu), is super cute, has a very attractive body, and has a really nice personality. He's very laid back. He's also very smart and motivated. And I can tell he's a really sweet and kind person. We met on OKCupid. He actually messaged me first. And I must say that the guys that usually message me, I'm not interested in. So when I got a message from this attractive guy that I seemed to have lots in common with, I was rather surprised and excited.

We just messaged each other back and forth for a bit, asking each other questions about ourselves. Finally, he asked if we wanted to exchange Facebooks and I said YES because I was dying to see my more pictures of him. I wasn't disappointed. He's just as cute in all of his pictures and I found out that he has traveled to so many places in the world. Something that I'm totally jealous about! He also loved seeing all my pictures (especially the really embarrassing ones from Disney. haha). We chat for a bit in the Facebook chat, but it wasn't long before he asked for my number. So of course I gave it to him. :)

I warned him that I'm a HUGE texter. And maybe he didn't believe me... but after a day, he said, "Wow you do like to text!" And I immediately got scared because that didn't sound very good. I apologized... not knowing what to say to that. But he reassured me it was ok and he was just kind of playing with me. Guess it was my paranoia because I tend to just text like crazy and it probably comes off as real needy. The fact is that i'm BORED and I just find texting to be a good way to pass the time. But anyway...

We decided on meeting up. I would drive up to him to have a dinner and a movie. He chose a nice, quaint, outdoor French cafe where we would share a fondue. I had never actually had fondue before so it was a neat new experience. We just talked and got to know more of each other. We're both a bit quiet so it was a little hard to get conversation going. But it wasn't painful. I just really wish I was better at conversations. I really is my biggest downfall :(

We chose to watch Scream 4 in the theaters. I paid for the movie because I already had pre-paid movie passes. OH and I paid for dinner too. I snatched up the bill when it came and he tossed over his credit card, but I pushed it back and offered to pay the whole thing. Right move to make, right?

So in the movie theater... not much talking going on in there, so maybe that was a good thing since we're both not very good at starting conversations. In the middle of the movie, I put my arm on the arm rest and my hand got near his hand. That was my move. He took the signal and kinda inched his pinky onto my hand, so I quickly grabbed onto his hand... a scary part was coming up so I was glad he did it. :P By the way.. I'm SOOO bad when it comes to watching scary movies. I JUMP at the slightest thing. You'd probably be embarrassed to know me if you were with me in the theaters watching a scary movie. BUT, I tried to keep it in control as much as possible when with him. I kinda took advantage of that a little bit to get closer to him ;) He didn't seem to mind. Plus he was saying he was cold in the theater so I tried to get close without making it obvious that we were two gay guys holding onto each other.

Well, I thought the movie went well so I was slightly confident with how the date was going. We walked out of the theater and it was already 1am so we knew we were parting ways. We parked in opposite directions so I asked if he would take me to my car since he knew his way around. When we got into the car, he asked what music I like. I said everything but rap. He seemed a little disappointed in that answer. And then I asked what his schedule is like and what days he has school. Trying to figure out what days we could get together again... So by the time we got to my car, I asked him when he would be free again. He answers, "Well, I'm pretty busy with school... I have finals in a week, and then it's my graduation.. so I'm busy." Hearing that, I just kinda took the hint that he wasn't interested. I mean, if he WAS interested, he wouldn't have said all that right? So I just kinda turned to him and said "well, you just let me know when you're free if you still want to hang out then." So with a little disappointment, I turned to him in my seat and motioned for a hug goodnight instead of the kiss goodnight that I would've like.

I got out of his car and walked to my car, all the while thinking, "well, I guess I blew it somehow. Didn't go as well as I had hoped." He drove off and I was on my way. I had about a 30-40 min drive to get back home, but I didn't want to wait until I got home to send the obligatory "I had a fun time" text. So I broke my rule of No Texting While Driving and sent him a text. He text me back and asked if I was home already. I said no. He asked "what about your no texting while driving rule?" I said, "I made an exception for you." hehehehe. good one right? He said back, "Aww. I had a good time too. I'm surprised you didn't kiss me." GASP, did I read his signals wrong? I told him I really wanted to but I wasn't sure if he wanted me to. And then he told me that he would've enjoyed a kiss goodnight. I sent back "*kicks self for missing out on kissing a great guy* I hope I get another chance." Aren't I just the cutest? LOL

So when I got home, we text each other a bit more and he asks if I had Skype. I said yes. He said he asked because he'd like that kiss goodnight. Hehe. Very cute. But I don't really do well with webcams. You'd think maybe on webcam, conversations would be easier than in real life. But it actually is more awkward for me. I don't know. I'm just weird I guess. So we turn on the webcam and he's super hot and shirtless. And I'm all frumpy with Asian fro hair. We just kinda talk about nothing and then I offer him the kiss goodnight. It was really cute and sweet that he wanted to Skype. It meant he wanted to see me and that he's still interested, so I'm happy with that.

This was actually just the night before. So it's rather new. I just hope that he doesn't play games. I don't really want to play games anymore. You know... the I'm gonna wait until he texts me first. And if he texts too much, then he's just too needy. And if he makes himself too available then I'm going to lose interest. Argh. Why does that happen? I just feel like with these games, noone ever wins. So I hope he's not that kind of guy. We seem to have things in common so hopefully we have feelings about not playing games in common too.

I'll most likely update more about Malibu on my Twitter. So if you wanna know more, I'd suggest you follow me on Twitter @nytedragon.

Well it's super late. We just had another Skype date because he text me and asked if I could get on to wish him goodnight. So cute. Again, he was hot and shirtless. I told him he's just so cute. He seemed to like that. I mean, who doesn't like to be told that they're cute, right? ;) Well, anyway.. heading to bed. Fingers crossed for this one, ok?

So Freakin' Happy

So why am I so happy? Haha. Well... Seriously 2 days after I wrote the "Search for a BF" blog post, I randomly get a message on Facebook from someone I did not know. It said something like:
"hey there. You look real familiar. Do you go to CSUF (a nearby college)? Or have you been in my Starbucks? I work at the one next to Disneyland."

So I respond:
"no I don't go to CSUF and I don't think I go to tour Starbucks enough for you to recognize me. But you are friends with a few of my friends at Disney. No matter! It's nice to meet you. And you have a great smile, btw."

I had checked out his profile to make sure he liked boys first. :P and then from there we messaged each other a few times on Facebook and learned a little more about each other. He eventually gave me his number and said "we should hang out soon."

From there we kept texting each other. I still hadn't met him yet so I found out when he was working next and told him I'd visit and get a coffee. So I stopped by. He was so excited to see me. He gave me my drink for free. :) unfortunately there was a line so I didn't stay to talk. But it served its purpose. I just wanted to see what he looked like in person. So I said we should actually have lunch and get to know each other.

We went for sushi. He loves Asian food. In fact, he loves Asians. Haha. He actually learned Chinese and is a Buddhist. He knows more Chinese than I do! He's SUPER tall. He's 6'5". And he wears really cute glasses... Such a turn on! And he's just a really sweet guy. Oh and he's HOT. Like, one of the cutest, hottest guys that I know. He's also younger.. 21. So I'm 5 years older... But it doesn't seem to bother him. Oh, and his name is Will :)

And for our first meeting, I was actually really comfortable talking to him. It was really fun to just get to know him. And I was able to talk about myself without feeling like, "am i going to say the wrong thing?"

We both enjoyed each other's company and said we felt really comfy with each other. So I asked him again what we should be... Friends with Benefits or more? I then added that I would love it if we were more than just friends with benefits because I really liked him. He immediately agreed and said he wanted more as well. So I told him that we should just go on a couple more dates to get to know each other more and not put any pressure on each other by saying we're in a relationship with each other or anything like that yet. He liked the idea.

So we hung out again a few nights ago. He came over to watch Harry Potter and he brought over a pie and ice cream. :) we cuddled up on the couch and talked and watched the movie. Soooo awesome. We stopped the movie halfway and went into my room because we couldn't keep our hands off each other :P No details... but it was definitely a good time. After that and after watching the rest of the movie, it was late. So I invited him to stay the night. :) guess he planned on it because he had clothes in the car :P

We spent the rest of the night on my bed telling each other our life story. It was great to just lay there with him and talk. I've never done that with another boy. And he would randomly just grab my face and give me a peck. So damn cute!!

Tonight, we went on another date. I originally had invited my roommate to see the Beauty and Beast stage show. I had gotten a pair of free tickets through work. This morning, my roommate texts me and offers her tickets to Will. She said that she wanted us to have a fun night out together. She's being really supportive because she wants the best for me. And I told her this is one of the nicest things she's ever done for me. :) So I offered the tickets to him and he immediately jumped at the chance. We rode in the same car to the theater.. and as we walked up to the theater, he reached for and held my hand. So cute! And after that, when we were walking around, he put his arms around me. During the show, he reached for my hand and just kissed it. He just knows what to do to put a smile on my face. :)

The show was also Will's "debut" to my friends. Two of my friends were also at the show. So he was introduced to them. One of them already knew him because Will is that awesome Starbucks barista that remembers who you are and your drink of choice. ;) But yeah, I was excited to introduce him to my friends. Because he's WAY hot and yes, I wanted to show him off! :P

After the show, we were both hungry, so we drove through a fast food joint and brought it back to my house. We just sat in bed, watching TV, and eating fast food. He said it was refreshing to be with someone that enjoyed eating. :) I had to agree.

Tomorrow night, we're going out for dinner at a place called the Boiling Crab. I've only heard GREAT things about the place and I'm excited for him to introduce me to it. I'm just super excited about spending more time with him. I'm enjoying it and letting things just happen. I'm making sure not to put pressure on each other and I think that's what making being with him enjoyable. :) YAY! So happy!

(BTW! This was my 300th Post! YAY!)

Mansions, and Theaters, and Ocean Views... OH MY!

I am still in awe... someone pick my jaw off the ground please.... oh thank y... oh wait.. sorry, it dropped again...

So today, I had a date with a guy that I met online. He seemed like a cool guy.. a little bit of a prick at first, but I forgave him because he's good looking and is from Australia. I am in LOVE with Aussies. :P So I asked if he wanted to hang out some time. That some time was this morning. I woke up early to get ready and so that I could get to his house by 11:30. He lived about 35 minutes away from me so I had to plan accordingly.

I got in my Prius and turned on the GPS. I input his address into the system and off I go. The GPS took me all the way out to the ocean. The weather was BEAUTIFUL today... I was welcoming it after a full week of brutal thunderstorms. I drove a bit along the coast, when the GPS told me to turn up into the hills. So I was driving up the hill, the houses are getting nicer and nicer. I was wondering where I was going... I got closer and I realized that I was all the way at the top where the highest houses are. And then I saw it... a 5-story modern piece of architecture. THAT'S the house?? I walked up the stairs to get to the front door. I rang the doorbell and through the intercom he said he'll be up in a bit. As I wait, I looked out to the ocean... a SPECTACULAR view. It was seriously breathtaking.

I'm nervous at this point... meeting a guy that I don't know at all other than a few conversations online. And to top it off, this guy is seemingly LOADED. He opened the door and I stepped into view of him. He's skinnier than in the pictures... but still good looking. Maybe if he washes up a bit... He welcomed me into his house and apologized for the way he looks because he slept in. He had a long night last night. He took me up a flight of stairs and says, "You better get used to stairs... you gotta like stairs." With an Australian accent, nonetheless. YUMMM!! We exchanged some formalities and he asked if I want anything to drink. I opted for water. Then he proceeded to take me to the stairs again and into a room with plush carpet and giant bean bag chairs on the ground. Before I knew what was going on, he was pressing a bunch of buttons on a fancy console and the projector turned on lighting up a a GIANT movie screen. And then I could hear electronic whirring noises. Looking around I saw that the curtains were closing automatically, blocking out the sun. He turned on "Invention of Lying," the Ricky Gervais movie, saying that he started watching it the other day and wanted to finish it.

He picked one of the bean bags and plopped himself on it. Not wanting to be too forward, I sat down on another bean bag. We spent the entire movie on our respective bean bags. No chance for cuddling. Not really a cuddling movie any way. But throughout the course of the movie we did have a few conversations. Most intriguing was that he admitted to not having many gay friends. Most of his friends are straight. Not sure if he doesn't like hanging out with gay guys or what... But I was glad he was hanging out with me. :)

When the movie ended he he took me on a tour of the MANSION. We have more conversations along the way. And hopefully he didn't see me gawking at everything I was seeing. A beautiful spa/pool area. Floor-to-ceiling glass windows overlooking the Pacific Ocean. The fur-lined elevator. LOL. Giant jacuzzi tub. I just have never been in a house like this before. It's just amazing!

I talked with him more and I asked what kind of business he's in. Well, he's an owner of a civil engineering company that builds tunnels, bridges, etc. for the government and then sells it to them as a product. He's a 55% owner of a publicly traded, multi-million/billion dollar company. I couldn't make out if he said million or billion because I was just so in shock at that point. Thank goodness that I had told him what MY job was first... Would've been embarrassing to talk about my measly job after his. Oh.. and he's only 28!

Then he took me into his room and we went on his computer because he wanted to show me some pictures of the damage to his house from the thunderstorms. There were mudslides and flooding in his neighborhood. Luckily his house didn't have too much damage but there was a LOT of mud. Just sat next to him on his bed while looking at these pictures. He also showed off me his house that he recently sold in Hollywood. Of course he bought a new one in Beverly Hills, but he's renovating it. He bought it for $5 million but it's gonna take about $18 million to renovate, so it'll end up being a $23 million home. Was he exaggerating?... I'm really not sure...

Unfortunately, after the pictures, it was already past the time that I needed to leave (I had work). So he took me down the several flights of stairs, past his pool table and giant office, through his garage, and down his driveway. We said our goodbyes, awkwardly. I went in for a hug, but he was moving around or something at the same moment so I sort of jerk back, and then start walking away. He said something about behaving or whatever, but I was too embarrassed to make out what he was saying. I turned back around one last time and said BYE, with a huge smile on my face to mask my embarrassment.

I got in my car and I just sort of sat there for a minute, taking in what had just happened. I just spent about 3+ hours with a hot, rich, Australian with a gorgeous mansion. AMAZING!! I drive and get to work and decide that it's been long enough that I can text him. Thanks for having me over, _(Aussie)_. I had a great time. Hope to hang out again soon.  


As I waited for a reply and thought back about our "date," I realized that we didn't even touch once. We didn't shake hands when we first met. He didn't hug me when he said goodbye. Not once did we touch. I started to think that he wasn't going to reply back because he just simply wasn't interested. 10 minutes later: Hey dude, hit me up when ur free next and we can line something up. So maybe he IS interested. :P Next "date": tomorrow night!

To Be Continued....

Friends With Benefits... So Far So Good

So it's been a week since we've decided to be friends with benefits, and I think it's working out just nicely. In addition to the awesome dinner and a movie we had last week, we've also been to the gym together. That was fun because he showed me how to use a lot of the equipment at the gym. I never use the machines because I feel like an idiot having to walk up to the machines and read the instructions... so it was nice to have someone just show me how to do it.

And then yesterday was his birthday. We started his birthday celebration with a midnight showing of Harry Potter. The movie was long, but it was nice to hang out with him. I really would even call it a date. We sat together, and were pretty close the whole time. He was very touchy with me. After the movie he came back to my place and I gave him his present. I decided NOT to do the ice cream thing... I figured the movie tickets were good. And then I gave him the Aussiebums. He seemed to like it. I showed him that I had matching ones, which I was already wearing. hehe.

I had also invited him to go to the House of Blues, but his friends ended up taking him out to the bars to celebrate, so he called me and thanked me for the invite but had to decline. (I was fine with it cuz I was actually really tired and just needed to relax at home, which is what I'm doing now) Then he also told me that he was wearing the underwear I got him and that they're really comfy. He also said that his friends thought they were sexy and he bragged to them that I got them for him. :) That made me feel pretty good -- I picked a good present. hehe.

So, I don't know what you guys are thinking, but I'm thinking what we have going on is pretty good right now. So what if we're not officially dating? I feel like we're doing some pretty date-y stuff. We still have plans to have an at-home movie night to watch "He's Just Not That Into You" and several epsiodes of "Doctor Who" and "Buffy." I'd probably call that a "date" in any other circumstance. But yeah, I just think that maybe he likes that we don't have the pressures of officially dating, and frankly I think I like that too.

But with there being no real commitment, I just have to remind myself not to get too emotionally attached to him because things can end at any moment. I don't see that happening soon because it really seems like we're enjoying each other's company a lot, but I just can't get my hopes up about him, I guess.

Well what are your opinions on the matter?

The Date: Details

I finally have some time to sit down and post about my time with Matty. I have a feeling that this post is going to be a rather long one, since many of you wanted DETAILS about what happened. So I think I'm going to bore you guys with the nitty gritty details that you asked for! So I suggest you go and get yourself a snack to eat and a drink while reading this, because who knows how long it'll take you to finish. :P

So in my post "Tuesday's Plans Expanded" I explained that instead of only coming down for bowling and burgers, Matty would come early in the day to have ramen for lunch, Disneyland during the day, and then bowling and burgers. That post was me freaking out about finding things to talk about with our extended date. Well, if you also read the comments in that post, I actually posted an extra update. Well, to explain, the weather forecast for Tuesday was rain. And in the area that Matty lives in, the high desert, it means that there would be snow. And when there's snow, the roads going out of his town and towards my area would be closed. Basically, neither of us wanted to postpone our date, so I asked if he would like to join my friends and me in a Nintendo Wii party that I was throwing at my place. He would stay over at my place after the party, and then we could go about our date the next day. He agreed that it would be a good idea.

Well, he came to the party on Monday night. He actually got to my apartment early while I was still at work, so he just kept himself company in his car for two hours. I felt so bad to have made him wait like that! When I got home, he was bundled up inside his car and sleeping. I called him to wake him up and he had this cute "just woke up" face. Thankfully, it wasn't an awkward meeting. I offered to help him carry stuff up to the apartment and we talked about his drive down here. Prior to meeting him, we had been texting and he mentioned he hadn't eaten anything, so I offered to make him a grilled cheese sandwich when he got to my place. So once we both got settled in, I made him his sandwich. He seemed to like it, because he asked for a second one. :)

Pretty soon, my friends showed up for the party. One by one, they came in, and I introduced them to Matty. My friends weren't nosy about how I knew him and who exactly he was until later in the night... I'm glad my friends aren't nosy like that, or else it would've been awkward for me. But Matty got along great with them. He joined in on some of the games, but didn't hog the time. I spent my night close to him, making sure he wasn't feeling left out or anything, while still being a good host to my other friends. Towards the end of the party, some of them DID ask who exactly Matty was, to which I just answered that he was a friend of a friend. They didn't pry. Some of them actually don't know that I'm gay... or at least, I haven't explicitly told them that I'm gay, but I think they all assume that I am. (At Disney, the assumption is that you're gay unless proven straight. lol)

By 2am, only about 7 people remained at the party, and we were all tired. So they all left and Matty and I were left alone in the apartment. I sat next to him on the couch for a bit asking how he was and if he had fun. We just had a bit of small talk.. don't remembe exactly what we talked about but conversation did seem to flow easily. After a bit, I told him that I wanted to shower before I went to bed since I had a long day of work before. So I got up to get my stuff ready for a shower. He stood up as well and proceeded to the "bedroom." (I live in a studio apartment, so the living room and the bedroom is pretty much the same room, but I placed my entertainment center in the middle of it to section off the two "rooms")

He sat on my bed and kinda made fun of how small it was. I only have a twin bed because I kept my bed from my college years, where space was limited and we didn't have room for bigger beds. I told him that I spent a lot of money on the bed and that I liked how comfortable it is, so I never traded it for a bigger bed. He then wanted to test how comfortable it was for himself, so he laid down on it. I kinda took that hint and went over and sat on the edge of the bed to talk to him. I then propped myself up at the head of the bed and had my legs up on the bed, while Matty was lying face down on the bed next to me. We stopped talking for a bit, both of us were tired, and so I ran my fingers through his soft hair. He seemed to like it because he didn't move. Then he picked up his arm and wrapped it around my legs. We stayed that way for a while as we both dozed off a bit. I then moved my arm to make myself a little more comfortable, at which point he looked up, and grabbed me and pulled me down so that I would join him laying down. We were face to face when he told me that I was cute. :) And then he moved in for the kiss.

We kissed for a good few minutes. We explored each other's bodies as we made out. He would slide his hand beneath my shirt and feel my chest and I would reach under his shirt and run my fingers up and down his back. All the while, I was developing a boner and it was pushing up against my jeans. As I explored his body, I let arm brush up against his crotch area a few times and I could tell that he was getting hard as well. After a few more minutes, he looks at me and tells me that he's ready to take a shower and that he didn't want to take it alone. So I said, "OK!"

We go to the shower and we strip. He was definitely already hard. He has a nice cut, 7.5-ish dick. I didn't measure and I didn't ask, so it's just a rough estimate. We jump into the shower and I immediately have a good time. I don't know if I've ever said anything about this, but fooling around in the shower is one of my recurring fantasies. So having the shower be our first sexual activity together was definitely a major turn on.

So a little description of Matty: He's 19 years old and around 5'11". He's a skinnier boy, but he definitely has a small tummy... it's kinda cute ;) but I do usually find guys with a more toned and muscular body to be hotter. He's sort of an emo kid, longer hair that goes over his eyes (after he straightens it, because he has naturally curly/wavy hair) and again, I don't usually go for the emo guys... but I'm sure Mirrorboy would LOVE Matty. ;)

In the shower, we continue to make out and jerk each other off. He then takes charge a little and kinda spreads my legs with his legs as we're kissing, and I took the hint that he wanted me to go down on him. Have I told you guys that I've only blown one other guy before? This was only going to be my second time giving a BJ. I was a little nervous, but I just went for it. He seemed to like it. After a while, he motioned for me to get back up. And then he got down and sucked me off for a bit. It felt great to be under the running water and getting a BJ. HOT!! When he got back up, he continued to take charge. He turned me around and pushed me up against the shower wall. He grabbed both my hands and placed them on the wall as he grinded his dick against my ass. Omg, that was seriously hot. I'm getting hard right now just thinking about it. He pushed his body up against mine and let his cock just slide between my ass cheeks and continued pumping himself like that. He then reached around and started jerking me off hard and fast while he grinded against me. We both came pretty much at the same time. Damn, it was so fun!! I love shower fun!! ;)

We cleaned up and got out of the shower. We then got ready for bed and he told me that he was going to have to share my tiny bed with him now. ;) I didn't object. We cuddled in bed, him holding me, as we both fell asleep. In the middle of the night, we kinda shifted positions, and it wasn't the best night's sleep because my bed is so damn small, but it was still comfy to know that he was next to me.

The next morning, we woke up at around 9:30am and got ready to go have ramen at this restaurant that my friends and I go to all the time. We arrived and saw that they didn't open for another 45 minutes.. so I decided that we should go to the nearest shopping center (South Coast Plaza) to walk around a bit and do some window shopping. During this time, we had some conversations about TV shows, most prominently Heroes. We're both Heroes fans and we got into some discussions about the plot of the series and our favorite super hero powers. :) I was glad that I could be geeky with him. We continued the conversations when we sat down for food. Again, not much awkward silences or anything. I think it was a good balance of me asking questions and him asking questions too. :) I was happy that it was going smoothly.

Since we got to ramen early, we also ended lunch early, so we drove back to my apartment to unwind a bit before I had to go to work. And when I say unwind, I mean we got to laying on the bed again. And when in bed, we both got horny. ;) Pretty soon, we were both naked and grinding up against each other. After a bit of that, I couldn't wait any longer and I went to grab a condom and lube. He quickly put the condom and lube on. I laid on my back and he threw my legs up in the air. Ok, so reminder that I hadn't had sex since Jamie in September... so I was a bit nervous about how much it would hurt. Well, thank goodness he used a good amount of lube. He slid inside me without too much trouble and he went slowly at first (thank goodness). There was some pain at first, but it soon subsided a bit. But I guess he was a little bigger than I thought because everytime he thrust deep inside me, I felt pressure inside. It was a little bit of pain... discomfort, I guess. But depending on the position of my legs in the air, it felt better. I don't know, is that normal? Should I be feeling that pressure/discomfort? hopefully some of you can help answer that for me?

Anyway, there was more pleasure than there was pain. And I enjoyed him fucking me deep and hard. I'm pretty sure I was pretty vocal during sex. Lots of moaning to be heard by my neighbors. LOL. It really felt good. I told him to go faster, and he did, and pretty soon we both came one right after the other. Oh it was great! Too bad it didn't last longer because I had to get to work!

I then dropped him off at Disneyland while I went to work. He watched me perform in all my parades. But he was alone the whole time, just exploring the park by himself. I did have 1.5 hours where I accompanied him in the park (during my lunch break). We went shopping for some Christmas gifts for his cousin (since I get a good discount). While shopping, there was this really cute Tigger and Eeyore doll that doubles as a pillow. We both it was so cute.. especially the Eeyore. He's one of my favorite characters. ;) He asked my opinion of whether he should get Tigger or Eeyore, so of course I tell him Eeyore. Such a soft pillow Eeyore makes!

After 8 hours in the park, I finally pick him up and we go off to the bowling alley. We get inside and get our rental shoes and our lane. So the first game, Matty did well. He started off strong, with some spares and strikes. I on the other hand was sucking real bad and guttered my first two frames. I got a few pins towards the end. First game results: Matty-111, Doug-68. I was hating life, but I was still having fun. I was more embarrassed than anything, cuz I totally wanted to be good at it! Well, second game came along, Matty didn't start off very good. I think he got only one or two pins the first two frames. I, on the other hand, started to get the hang of it and was doing better. I picked up a few spares and even some strikes. Matty continued to do poorly and kept guttering. Each time he guttered, he got real frustrated. He would walk back after a gutter and I would try to cheer him up. But he seemed really pissed off. After his turns, he would stand in the back, with his arms folded. I asked if he was ok, and he would only give one word answers. It was obvious that we weren't going to play another game. Not with this attitude.

Let me just say that at this point, I was REALLY turned off by his attitude. I understand being frustrated about not doing well in the game. I mean, I wasn't doing all that well in the first game either! But I played it off and just kinda laughed at how horrible I was. But he couldn't do that. And it just shows that he's a bit young and immature for me. I just couldn't get over the fact that he was pouting and not talking to me. I mean, he's on a date. No matter how pissed off he really is, wouldn't you think he'd at least fake it and cheer up a little?... sigh...

We paid for the games and walked back to the car. Virtually silent the whole time. We agreed to still go grab burgers (In-N-Out) since we had talked about it and made plans for that beforehand. The whole car ride to the restaurant was silent. I couldn't get him to talk. We ordered and drove it back to my apartment. STILL quiet. Got back to the apartment, decided to put in the musical episode of Buffy The Vampire Slayer (since we had talked about it in our earlier chats). FINALLY, when the episode started, did he start to open up again. As we ate, he finally loosened up. And pretty soon, we were singing along to the songs and sharing our favorite moments in the episode.

It was just unfortunate that I had to see that side of him. But I guess it's a good thing that I got to see it sooner rather than later. It gives me a better judgement of who he really is. Well, as the episode went on, we finished our food (YUMMY) and I went to get ready for bed, since it's been a long day for the two of us. When I got out of the bathroom, Matty had turned off all the lights and was lying on the couch watching the rest of the episode. I went over and joined him, lying on top of him. We stayed in that position and made out for a bit.

Then he got up and led me over to the bed where we continued to make out. Again, our clothes came off soon after that. Next thing I know, I was on top and straddling him. I grinded my ass against his cock a bit, and finally decided to go and grab those condoms and lube again. I put the condom on him and lubed him and me up good. I then slowly sat on his dick, letting it go all the way in. Again, I felt that pressure towards the end, but when I would lean forward or back a certain way, the discomfort was gone. So I tried to stay in the more pleasureable positions. After a bit of riding him, I told him that I wanted him to fuck me from behind. I had never had that before so I definitely wanted to try it. And OMG, did it feel good. He got behind me and pounded me GOOD. I, again, was pretty loud. Neighbors probably weren't happy. ;) My head was knocking up against the wall too. HAHA. He came inside me (in his condom, of course), but I didn't cum. I wanted to get in the shower and finish there.

So we both jumped in the shower and I had him give my dick some attention in there. I had him jerk me off and suck me. Then I had him sit down in the tub as I stood over him. I thrust my dick in his mouth for a bit, then I pulled out and started to jerk myself off. He was also hard again and ready to come again (ah... to be 19 again....). We basically came together again. Another amazing shower ;)

We went to bed in each other's arms again. Felt nice to be hld while falling asleep. Definitely something that I missed. The next morning, we decided on Dennys for lunch before he had to pack up and get back home. However, conversation at Dennys was a bit harder. I don't know what it was. Perhaps what happened the night before at the bowling alley was affecting how I perceived him. But I definitely felt that there was less in common between us. Again, I think the incident at the bowling alley just made me realize that I needed someone more mature. However, we still had a nice meal together and went got back to the apartment with a bit of time to spare before I had to get to work.

Being the hornball that I am though, I started to mess around again, and got the two of us hard and horny. I told him that I wanted a quickie before I had to go to work. (I'm such a slut, aren't I??) Well, I wanted him to fuck me from behind again. This time felt even better than last time. Again, a little discomfort, but I found a position where it felt good. Again, hard right now just thinking about it! We finished together and got cleaned up.

We quickly packed everything up. And as we were about to leave, he picked up the Eeyore that he had bought and had been sleeping with and handed it to me and said, "Merry Christmas." I was surprised by that. I told him that he really should...that he should keep it for himself. Well, he insisted I take it since I looked like I really wanted it when he bought it. So I accepted it and thanked him for being such a sweetheart. It was actually the only real Christmas present that I got this year. So it kinda means a lot.

We said our goodbyes. It was a bit rushed because I really had to get to work. But we told each other that we would keep texting the rest of the day. And that we did. And are still doing. This morning, he actually told me that he thinks that we should date. I was a little put off and worried about the implications of that text. So I straight up replied and told him that I didn't want anything to serious right now and that I just wanted to see where things go between the two of us. Well, that was what he meant by "dating" .. nothing official or anything. Just hanging out with each other and stuff. So I told him I was happy we are both on the same page and that I would love to see him again some time.

Yes, Matty is a bit young and immature at times, he's still a sweetheart and a cute kid. I just don't want that one incident at the bowling alley to be the deciding factor... so I'm going to see him again and see how it goes. We are planning to see each other around New Years. He's coming down to the area with a friend and I think he'll stop by for the night again or something. We've also been texting each other back and forth. I can tell that he's interested in me ;) Tonight, he wanted to make sure that I was home from work and comfy before we went to bed. I thought that was really cute and sweet of him. :) I asked why he was being so damn cute, and he tells me it's because he's trying to woo me. HAHA. I told him that it might be working a little :P

Wow, is anyone still reading this? And did you really read all of it? Cuz this was like an essay. I'm sure it's like 5 pages of writing in a word processor. LOL. I just wanted to make sure I wrote out everything, since you guys asked for it. And plus, it's my way to keep a log of what happened in my life. I mean, I did start this blog as a sort of online journal for myself. So I guess the more detailed the better, for my own purposes. And if that satisfies you guys, then all the better ;)

But do any of you have any advice? Comments? I would love to hear what you guys think of Matty from what I've written here. And I would love to get your opinions on how I should proceed with him. My big thing right now is our age difference and his maturity level. Is that a big deal for you guys?

Well, hope everyone had a great Christmas... now looking forward to what the new year brings us all.

Tuesday's Plans Expanded

So after I posted my last entry, the boy I'm seeing on Tuesday (Matty) and I chatted even more. Our conversation got into food and I told him that I LOVE Japanese food. He tells me that he also loves Japanese food and Asian cuisine in general. MAJOR points right there ;) So I ask him about Ramen. No, not Top Ramen or the kind of the ramen you make yourself at home from a tiny orange package. Ramen, as in the real kind where they make it for you in a restaurant and have amazing soup bases. He tells me that he's had Ramen before and that he LOVES it. Well, it seriously is one of my favorite foods, and my friends and I go all time. So I tell him that we should definitely go have Ramen together some time. He agrees.

And then he gets a bright idea about Tuesday. He wanted to know if I would want to get Ramen early in the day for lunch before I went to work. And then I can let him into Disneyland and then leave for bowling together after my work. He lives pretty far, so driving down just to go bowling from 10:30pm on wasn't ideal. So he wanted to make a full day out of it. Well, of course I agreed because Ramen is amazing and it would be fun to spend more time with him. :)

Well, this morning came, and the reality of that sort of sunk in. Him coming earlier in the day means more time that I would have to spend trying to start conversation. I don't know if I've mentioned this, but I am not a conversation starter. In fact, I don't really like to talk too much. I'm a very quiet, reserved person. If I'm asked to speak or asked to explain something, I'll do it, but mostly in the least amount of words possible. So, thinking about spending more time with him is sort of freaking me out.

To make matters a little worse, I spent over an hour on the phone with him tonight. Well, normally, talking on the phone is not a bad thing. In fact, it should be a GREAT thing because we've more on from texting to actual conversation on the phone. BUT, the bad thing was there definitely was a lot of awkward silences. See... a lot of that was due to us both being tired. We had first gotten on the phone because he was driving home after dropping his friends off at their houses. He told me he was real tired, so I told him that he could call me to keep him awake while driving. So he did, and I got him talking in the beginning. But after a while, conversation started to whither away... and those awkward silences crept in. I tried so hard to start conversations... just about ANYTHING.. I just said what came to my head. But both us would start the conversation but then end it abruptly and then silence came again.. Like I said, I really don't know if it was because we're both tired or just because I suck at keeping conversations.

I just REALLY REALLY hope that this doesn't happen when we see each other face to face. When he gets here, the drive to Ramen is a good 30 minutes. How awkward would it be if the car ride was just silent? :( And then eating at the restaurant. Will I be able to come up with topics to discuss and things to say there? And then there's the ride back too!... I think this early addition to the "date" is really screwing with me. Because at bowling, we're engaged in an activity so it'll be easy to keep things going. But in a car and at a meal, that's where it gets tough for me!!

I don't want to make a bad impression.... I need some pointers.. advice.. HELP!

Bowling on Tuesday

For the past few days, I've been chatting with a boy. I met him at my job's Holiday Party. He was one of my friend's date and all of us hung out together. We found each other on Facebook and we started commenting on each other's pages. Then we used the Facebook chat to talk a bit. And then moved on to AIM. And last night we exchanged phone numbers so we could text each other (cuz we both love texting).

Well, on Facebook, I posted a status saying that I really want to go to this new bowling alley that opened up near by and if anyone wanted to join. Well, he responded to it pretty quickly. And we just started talking about it and how we're both real interested in bowling because we hadn't done it in a LONG time. Well, through our AIM conversations, I could tell that he was interested in me :) And I think he's a pretty cute kid too. He's younger than me by 5 years, but that shouldn't matter, right? So last night, I just asked him if he'd like it if it was just the two of us that went bowling. He said that that'd be real fun. :)

So I think it's a date on Tuesday. I dunno. I'm just going to take it as two people hanging out and getting to know each other. I don't want to classify it as a date, because then I'll get all nervous and dumb again. So I'm just going to let it happen and be cool about it. And hopefully we'll both have fun in the process.

Responding to Comments

I just want to thank everyone for taking the time to answer some of those questions. Those two questions about Date Guy Matt and my friend (Jeffrey) breaking up were more questions for myself to find out and ponder. But I definitely thought through all of your responses to the other questions and I think it has really helped me make a decision about this guy.

HCI: Shouldn't him being Jeffrey's ex affect things? I mean, would you want your friend dating your ex? That just keeps going through my head. Or is that not that big of a deal anymore? I really don't know. And I guess I would have to ask Jeffrey. BUT, he's still in Paris and hardly ever gets online. Oh.. and the other thing.. he doesn't know I'm gay yet.. That creates a problem...

Gay Snowboarder: I tend to stress over guys, don't I? That's bad... You're right that not too much energy should be wasted on him... but he's just some damn HOT though. It's hard to get over that.

James: It's in my nature to forgive people. I hardly ever hold a grudge... He really should've called or contacted me in SOME way. But at least he did apologize afterwards, right?

Midori: You're totally right... I made it too big of a deal. Again, I tend to do that a lot. Perhaps, in the future, I need to just calm down more and not stress over it and blow it out of proportion. And yes, shelving him as a possible friend/date sounds like a good idea. I don't think I should put too much stock in this guy.

Aron: A little obsessive? What made you think that? lol. And I will try to detach myself from any expectations. Thank you for that advice.

E: Haha... simple and succinct. Thanks.

AJ: Yeah - he SHOULD make it up to me! So we'll see how it goes.

Steevo: Flakes.... hate them. Unless they're Frosted Flakes... in which case they're G-R-R-R-EAT!

Joshua: I think you hit the nail on the head about how him being Jeffrey's ex affects things. And I seriously wouldn't know if Jeffrey would approve or not. There's just so many "what ifs" to this situation!

Barry: (From Yahoo chat) He definitely does owe me... so you're right in telling me not to go out of my way to chat with him. And yeah, why didn't he message me sooner? What IS he trying to avoid?

So I really want to thank you guys for commenting and giving me your advice.
My Decision: I'm going to STOP initiating contact with him. If he wants to talk to me, then he'll message me. If he does, then I will talk to him and see where it goes. And he definitely would have to make up for standing me up some how. For now, I will try not to let my knowledge of him being Jeffrey's ex affect me. I think we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. If he doesn't contact me, then whatever... his loss, I guess. I mean, it's going to be hard to just stop contacting him because he's seriously the hottest guy that's ever paid any attention to me, but what good is he if he's not into me?

I'm glad I've made this decision and even more thankful that I had you guys to help me through it. All you guys are THE BEST! :)

Date Guy Matt

Ok, so more about Date Guy Matt. Logged on to the dating site and got a message from him.

hey, im sorry. things got busy for me here - family ended up coming over since we didnt ALL get together for the holiday. lets try and reschedule tho. it wasnt intentional

I asked about his phone and his AIM and he said his phone has been acting up and his AIM logs on automatically on his computer that he doesn't use. Sounds like excuses... but I guess I'm too nice and gave him another chance. So I started emailing back and forth again.

Well, today, my buddy Jon calls me up and tells me to get on Facebook to look something up. APPARENTLY, Matt and I have met before. Jon knew he had looked familiar to him. And I thought he looked familiar too. Matt is actually the ex of one of my good friends from work. My friend is in Paris right now for work, but he's back in January. Sigh... how complicated can this be?

Lots of questions:

• Do I forgive him for standing me up?
• Are those excuses good enough?
• Should I continue to talk with him?
• How does he being my friend's ex affect things?
• How did he and my friend break up?
  
• Did they even truly break up or was it because he was in a different country?
• Is this way too many questions to waste on one guy?

How ridiculous....

F#@% Him!

Stupid Date Guy Matt didn't text me back the whole day. I gave him the benefit of the doubt and thought maybe he didn't get my first text yesterday. So, I text him again today. No response. I get on AIM on my iPhone. At around 5:30pm, he's online. But NO messages from him. I stay on AIM for 10 minutes to see if he'll say anything. Nothing. Finally, I say "hey, what's up?" Still Nothing.

WTF, dude?! What the hell did I do to make you just ignore me?! That's pretty screwed up. On Thanksgiving, I emailed him and wished him a Happy Thanksgiving. The next day, he messaged me back: "Thank you so much!! Hope you had a great Thanksgiving as well. :)" That's what he wrote back. I thought it was a good sign. But I guess not! ARGH - I just don't get it.

After this post, I'm going to be forgetting about him. I've already done all the sulking that I needed to do. And I'm not going to let it get to me any more. I'm taking all of the advice that I've gotten from all of you awesome people out there and just moving on. He's an ass. I'm awesome. His loss. The end.

Making a Big Fuss For Nothing

Well, it seems I've made a big fuss over nothing. Date Guy, Matt, didn't respond to my text message. We had discussed that we would contact each other Saturday afternoon/night to check if Sunday is still good and to decide on what to do. Well, Saturday has come and gone. And now it's Sunday morning and nothing. I knew I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up - and I didn't let myself. I knew that it was too good to be true. So I didn't let myself obsess about it too much. And yes, perhaps there's still a chance - maybe his phone died - maybe something happened that he needed to take care of - but for now, it looks like I have no date tonight.

I really was looking forward to it. I was hoping that tonight's date will just be a completely better experience than that last date I had... and now I'm just bummed about it all. BUT, I'm telling myself that I'm not going to get the best of me. If tomorrow comes and goes and he still hasn't text/contacted me back, then I will just take it and move on. I've learned my lesson, and I'm not going to let it consume me again.

Besides, I have another date lined up in mid-December. It's further down the road, so again, it might not happen... but it's something else to look forward to.

I guess just wish me luck in both situations.

Tell Me What To Wear!

Guys... I am such a mess. And I need your advice on this date. I really can't decide on what I want to wear. I know this counts as obsessing, which is what I SHOULDN'T be doing right now... but I can't help it. So you guys might as well help me out.

SO, I took a bunch of pictures of myself in possible articles of clothing that I can wear to the date. PLEASE let me know what you guys think of them. (The pictures are small, but you click into them to make them bigger)

First Decision: Which pairs of jeans?!

Jeans #1: Express Men. Low Rise Straight Fit. Dark wash.

Jeans #2: Express Men. Low Rise Boot Cut. Faded wash.

I'm leaning towards Jeans #1 because they're a little tighter, but they're also kind of restricting in movement. As in, I can't really squat down too well because they're kinda tight. But when am I going to need to squat, right? Jeans #2 are definitely more comfortable. Do you guys like the faded wash in the front? They're just a bit more baggy and therefore makes my thighs look huge.

Second Decision: What top should I wear?!

Top #1: Heritage. Light Grey Graphic T. Argyle + Design. (w/ optional jacket because it'll be cold)

Top #2: Gap. Red collared shirt. Semi-tight fit.

Top #3: Heritage. Black Graphic T. Argyle + Design

Top #4: Heritage. Blue/White button-up shirt.

Ok, so I narrowed it down to these 4 options for the tops. I just kept my tight pair of Low Rise Straight Fit jeans on for these pics. I'm not sure if I'll need a jacket or some outerwear because the forecast says a high of 81 on Sunday. (Jeez! I thought it was Fall!) But I'm guessing the temperature will drop at night, so I'm thinking I should plan on wearing SOMETHING. Deciding on that is going to take more time...

Third Decision: Which pair of shoes?!

Shoes #1: Puma. Black w/ White design.

Shoes #2: Adidas. White w/ Black stripes.

These are the two pairs of shoes that I'm consider to go with the outfit. I guess it depends on what I'm wearing for my top. But the black Pumas are super comfy. The white Adidas are a little more stylish, but they kinda hurt my feet because I think they're too narrow. My left big toe pushes up against the tip of the shoe and it sorta hurts after a while.

So I need all your help! Let me know if the tops are too casual or too formal or too ugly or whatever. Just help me out! I can't decide! Or let me know if I should just buy something new. I just got a comment from E telling me to buy something new. But I wouldn't even know what to buy! LOL. I'm a big mess. I have such horrible fashion sense.... I'm hoping you guys have better fashion sense than me!

Anxious

This is the perfect word for me now.... anxious.

I'm anxious to go on this date. I'm anxious to get to know the guy. And I just need to calm down. But I just have this horrible gut feeling that it's not going to go as planned. Something's going to happen and he's not gonna wanna go on the date with me. First off, I don't even know why he agreed to a date with me in the first place! I mean, c'mon, he's a freakin hottie! Like SUPER hot in my books. What is he doing with me?? And he's going to be thinking about it this week and he's going to realize he made a mistake in agreeing on a date, and then bail out.

All of this is going through my head - and I just can't help it. Anxious? Low self-esteem? Probably a mixture of everything. But the "giddy-ness" from last night has fizzled away and now I'm just worried/nervous about it all.

AJ talked some sense into me tonight. I think it helped a bit. But it's still looming in the back of my mind. But I really want to thank AJ for being a great friend and giving me advice on calming down and being cool about it all. And he's teaching me to not seem desperate and what to do and not to do on the date. :) Seriously, I had no idea - I'm really bad at the date thing I guess. But thanks to AJ, I have some things to work off of. THANKS BUDDY! You're the best!

So, I'm just waiting until Sunday. Or rather, Saturday, I'll send him a text or something to confirm the date. But until then, I'm just playing it cool and laying low. No IMs, texts, or phone calls until Saturday. I just want this to turn out good! Please keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Giddy

James made fun of me when I told him I was "giddy." I think it's a very appropriate word for how I'm feeling right now. It's more than just "happy" but not so much that I'm jumping for joy. Somewhere in the middle.

Why? Well, tonight, while browsing through an internet dating site, I met a guy that seems very genuine. And that's definitely tough to find on internet dating sites. This guy caught my eye with his picture. I clicked into his profile and he didn't really write a description. He just had his stats posted. I liked his stats and his pictures, so I figured I might as well write him a "hello." After a few minutes, I didn't even think that I'd get a response. But I got a response! And he asked how I was doing, which meant he was interested in some sort of conversation. So from there on, we greeted each other... talked about what we were doing at the moment (both of us were watching TV)... what plans we had for this Thanksgiving... what our education background is... etc.

And then I decided to be bold and ask him what he was looking for on the site. And I guess it's a pretty reasonable question to ask. Most guys on there will just say that they're there for a quickie or a hookup. Well, he responds by telling me that he's looking for someone to talk with and see where things go from there. He's not into hookups - he prefers that he meet someone first, then see where things lead. But he adds that he's not saying that he's not a physical person ;)

Well that's a pretty good response, I would say! I tell him that it's completely refreshing to see that there are guys on the site that want to talk and hang out first. And that I'm looking for exactly the same thing. I also add that getting physical is definitely more fun when you've gotten to know the guy first. HEHE.

So I ask him if he'd like to grab coffee or a bite to eat some time. And he says that he'd love to! We introduce ourselves (his name is Matt) and let each other know where we live. He'd be about a 20-25 minute drive on the freeway from me. Still within the same county, but just opposite ends I guess. No biggie! We also exchange AIM screen names (FINALLY!, it was getting tedious to chat on the internet site).

On AIM, we kind of set a date for our date. :) He explains that he's going out of town for Thanksgiving this week so next week would be best. He returns on Saturday, so I suggest Sunday night after I work. I didn't want it to be any later because I don't want to wait any longer for this date to happen! lol. He also asks if I have any more pictures of me. We agree to exchange more pics.

And thanks to James for helping me choose two good pics of myself to send to him. He picked one of me that I thought I looked stupid in, but he convinced me to send it to Matt. And it definitely was a good choice because he said I looked cute (and that I had a nice sweater vest... haha). He then sent me his pics, and WOW does he have a nice smile. He looks kinda like Josh Lucas (from the movies Poseidon and Sweet Home Alabama) and Jensen Ackles (from the CW's Supernatural). I think he's REALLY good looking. And he's tall. 6'3"! I'm only 5'9", so there's kind of a height difference there... but whatever! I like taller guys!

So after the pics, we again made plans for the date. Tentative plans since it IS a week away and things may change. But we exchanged phone numbers as well. So I have his AIM and phone number. That should be enough to keep in contact with him! :)

Then I asked him about TV again and if he was still watching Seinfeld. That led to a discussion about what TV shows we like to watch. We have some of the same tastes in TV. And that's GOOD. One big one that he doesn't care for is "Friends." But I guess I can deal with that. He's into Heroes though! Very happy about that! But he tells me he hasn't watched this season at all! So I ask if he has Netflix because they just opened up the "Watch Instantly" feature on Mac computers. With that, we can watch episodes from THIS season right away on our computers! He says he doesn't have Netflix, so I slip in that he is welcome to come over any time to watch Heroes and that I wouldn't mind watching the episodes over again with him because they're really good. :P He thought it was a nice gesture and thanked me, adding that it could be fun.

And by that time, it was already midnight and he had to get to work early tomorrow. So we said our goodbyes. He told me it was great talking to me and that I should keep in touch. I tell him "of course!" and that he should feel free to IM me any time.

So, that is the reason why I'm giddy! Don't you think that's an appropriate word? I have a date planned and it's with a sweet, smart, cute guy! You know, I'm not getting my hopes up on this at all. But it's just nice to have had a conversation with someone and to have the prospect of a nice date that may develop into more. But we'll see! I mean, the date is a WEEK away. And things may change. He might change his mind about me. He may bail out before that. Who knows? But for now, I'm going to bed giddy and with a grin on my face. :)

No Sleep..

I've had no sleep these past 2 nights. I've been working a project for work (volunteered to do it... how stupid am I?) and now the end product is no where near the standards. And I'm very pissed off at myself for not doing a better job. But I've had absolutely ZERO time to do this. My friends tell me it'll be fine and that they will enjoy it and just appreciate that I took the time to do it. But I'm still frustrated that it didn't turn out better. Especially because I know there will be "friends" who like pick it apart and tell me that it sucked ass. I ALREADY KNOW.. THANK YOU!

So the guy I went out on that date with hasn't called me back or really tried to get in contact with me again (except for a forwarded text message that informed me of the next Prop 8 protest nearby). So I'm guessing he decided that the date sucked as well. Glad there isn't any awkwardness there... We both realized it wasn't a good date and are moving on.

In other news, my cousin called me yesterday to ask me if he could stay over with me because he has been assigned to do work in my area and he doesn't want to drive back to his house (about 45 min - 1 hour drive) each night. I was hesitant to say yes, just because I like my privacy and alone time at home... plus I live in a studio apartment. So I asked him how long he needed to stay for. He tells me, "This whole week, and into next week." WHAT?! Argh.... He asks me if it's alright, and I told him, "Well, I'm not going to say no!" Cuz then he'll just tell his mom (my aunt) and she'll tell my mom, and then they're gonna get on my case for not helping out family. But MAN, I really don't want him to stay for a whole week!! One or two nights, MAYBE.... Blah. I hate this... I think he's coming over for his first night tonight. I'm not happy about it.

Wedding Bells

My friends are getting married in October! The happy couple will be getting married at the Disneyland Resort! This is where the ceremony is going to take place (I believe):

It looks so amazing. So excited!
Oh, I should mention that my friends are guys. They live in New York now, but for obvious reasons, they're getting married back here in California. I'm just excited that I got invited. I've never been to a friend's wedding before! I've only been to my sister's wedding about 5 years ago. Oh jeez, what to wear?! What to get them?! They're registered at Bloomingdales... um, can I even afford anything in there?! Well, I'm just really happy for my friends and it should be an AMAZING ceremony and reception.

Also, I get to bring a guest. I wonder if J will be in California during the wedding... He does owe me that date he promised me....