I'm Bored...

So my Halloween costume isn't as slutty as last year's Buzz Lightyear costume.. but I'm still going to be slightly sexy. I'm going to have a sleeveless shirt on so I'm going to need my arms to look good. So I was just working out my biceps right now...

And then I got bored so I opened Photo Booth and took a pic :P Enjoy.

Halloween = Success!!

So I didn't actually go anywhere on Halloween day, but I had a party the night before at a friend's house. I'm really glad I went and am really glad that I finished my costume. The final product was AWESOME and it was a big hit at the party. And I got compliments throughout the night on my abs. :P Sooooo proud of myself. LOL.

There's the completed shirt. It's a sleeveless crop top. I ironed on the Space Ranger logo in the middle and the "Lightyear." The buttons on the both sides are made of felt that I just cut up, stacked on top of each other, and glued to the shirt.

Here are the two designs that I painted on my arms... Kinda messed up the "SR" (Space Ranger) logo, but I don't think anyone noticed if they weren't in the light. And then N helped me draw the LASER logo on my right arm since I'm right-handed and didn't trust myself to make good lines using my left hand.

I even made shoes covers so that I was covered head-to-toe in Buzz Lightyear. But I didn't get a picture of it. :( Anyway, here's the final product:

You can't see, but I spray painted my hair purple because Buzz Lightyear wears a purple hood. And the fingerless gloves adds to the slut factor, don't you think? :P Oh, and I'm looking at the picture right now, but can you tell that those are booty shorts? I just bought white booty shorts from American Apparel and then glued the green onto the waistline.

I'm seriously proud that I was able to get it all done. It took quite a bit of time and effort to make all this, but it was fairly cheap and I think it was worth it in the end! I've even uploaded the above photo to Guys With iPhones so keep an eye out for it if they decide to post it on the site.

Halloween Fun

It's almost Halloween!! So that last time I talked about a costume, I was still set on the idea of using my leather jacket for something. Well, I've since scrapped that idea and now have gone a completely different route. Ok, well.. not completely different. I'm still going to be slutty and have very little clothes on... If anything, I'm going to be showing a lot MORE skin with this new costume idea.

So... this year... I'm going to be... Slutty Buzz Lightyear. Hehehehehe. This was all Bryan's idea when I was complaining to him how I couldn't find leather chaps that looked good for my Slutty Biker idea. So he just decided to help me brainstorm new ideas and Buzz Lightyear came up.

So I'm making the costume from scratch and at first I thought it would be pretty lame... But now that I've started creating it, I'm getting really excited for it! I just have a few more things that I need to do to complete it and then I'll DEFINITELY take a picture and post it here. Oh it's going to be great! But I better go on a slight diet and do some extra ab workouts from now until Halloween!! =P

Hope you all have a fun and safe Halloween this year!!

UPDATE: Here's what I have of my costume so far.. Just some logos to iron-on for the shirt and then some extra touches for shoes and I'm done!

Halloween Costume Possibility?

So going through my closet, I found/remembered that I own a really nice leather jacket that I bought in Italy about 5 years ago. I'm thinking sexy biker boy... something like that.

I posted this on Twitter earlier today, but I thought I'd share it here too. :P

And if you don't already, why not follow me on Twitter @nytedragon

Silly Halloween Leads to Deeper Thoughts

So Halloween has passed. It's a fun, silly "holiday" where we can all dress up as something else. And I love how that means we dress up (or should it be down?) as something "slutty." Up until this year, I was the complete opposite, but I finally gave in and decided to be revealing. And I had fun doing it. Not going to lie, I felt kinda sexy. Not that I got any action out of it.. hehe. But it was still fun, for myself, to be doing something, dressing in something, that I would NEVER ever dress in on any other day.

So I posted my pictures on Facebook as well. After they got posted on there, I remembered that my sister also has a Facebook account and realized she would most likely be seeing these photos. And more than likely, she would be sharing these photos with my mom. What would they think about them? Especially of the picture where I'm getting sandwiched molested by Apollo and Naked Chef? And then the next question was, do I really care if they see the pictures? I think my answer to that was NO, because I haven't taken down the pictures. Does this mark another step in my coming out? I don't really care if they see the pictures. And I think somewhere in my subconscious, I want them to see it and I want them to ask me about it. This does not mean that I'm not terrified about coming out to my family though - because I still am! I still think/believe that they would disown me. But there's SOMETHING inside me that's begging for them to find out.

But do you think that me wanting them to find out is just me being afraid of actually telling them that I'm gay? Because there's a big difference between me telling them and them finding out. I guess here are my thoughts on the two scenarios:

1. They find out: I don't have to come up with the courage to sit them down and tell them. They just ask me about it, and I tell them "yes." But would it take even more courage to say the words "yes?" Because them finding out would mean that I'm not prepared. It would most likely be some sort of ambush from my family where they suddenly ask me about it. Would I be prepared to say "yes?" But it would only be one word and I can just blurt it out and tell them.
2. I tell them: Will I ever find the courage to actually do this? Since I believe in all my heart that they would disown me, will I EVER actually do this? But it's something that I can prepare for. And it would be done on my terms... my way. Though it seems that doing it on my terms sounds WAY better, I just don't think I can get over the fear of essentially losing my family and actually doing it.

And so a silly day like Halloween has caused all these thoughts to be racing in my head.. who would've thought, huh?

Halloween Pics!

Though I wasn't really feeling the party that much last night, I still had some fun moments and took some good pics. So here they are, a combination of nights 1 and 2:

I had no idea what was going on....

The coach and the cop

Me with bunny #1

Ariel! (can you tell that she's actually a tranny?)

Night two: Me and Indiana Jones

Beastmaster? I don't know but HOT!

Bunny #2!

Me getting molested by Apollo and the Naked Chef

Halloween: Round 2

So I didn't have nearly as much fun in the block party as the smaller party. I think that proves that I'm definitely not a party animal. There were probably 150-200 people at this block party but I think just being in that environment didn't make me very comfortable. Plus, I felt lost when I wasn't walking around with my friends. I knew a lot of people at the party, but only a few that I wanted to actually stay with. So most of the night, I was just hanging on to my friends like a little puppy dog. Plus, I don't drink. I was the DD for the group. So just being around people who were completely wasted out of their minds was not fun for me.

There WERE a lot of great looking boys there though! However, I didn't feel comfortable going up to them to talk to them or dance with them. I didn't even feel comfortable checking them out because I had a bunch of friends there that don't know that I'm gay. So I really just kept to myself the whole time. And it was kind of a downer...

At the end of the night, as I was driving home, Miles asks me if I had fun. All I could say was, "It was OK." I really don't think I had fun at all... Why is it so hard for me to have fun? I just hate myself for being so uptight some times. I wish I was more outgoing, but it's definitely easier said than done. And not being able to tolerate alcohol also sucks. All these people drinking, letting loose, letting their inhibitions go... I won't ever be able to be like that because my body just physically cannot take the alcohol. With the smallest bit of booze, my body gets REAL red and hot and then my heart feels like it's going to pound out of my chest. It's ridiculous....

So unfortunately, I don't have any fun stories to tell about my Halloween parties... Only a few nice pictures to prove that I was actually a part of it. I guess by actually making it out to the party is my first step at becoming a more outgoing me. But what is it going to take to finally get me to let loose and have fun?

Halloween (Round 1): Quick Update

Ok, so I promised a full update with pics and everything, but I'm going to save that until I'm done with Round 2 of Halloween. Last night was a party at my friend's house. More intimate and close friends. Tonight is a big Halloween BLOCK PARTY so there are going be TONS of people there. Can't wait!

Last night, I took 250 photos!! haha. So I'm thinking I'll take at least that many tonight.
Here's a picture to show you my costume. (ok, I'm not gonna lie.. I look pretty good in some of these pics! hehe) Here I am taking a picture with Michelle Obama! (Miles was Barack Obama, but our pictures together didn't show off my costume, so I'm not posting those lol)


So I forgot to bring my clipboard into the party... would've made it a lot better. But the shirt says "COACH" on the front there if you can't see it, and it says COACH again bigger on the back. HEHE.. can't wait to show it off again at the block party tonight! WOO!

Happy Halloween!!

Heading out to Hallween party #1! Full update with pics as soon as I get home! ;)

My (Gay) Day Off

Wow I think I might have had one of the gayest days of my life today.

I started the day wanting to get a Mystic Tan (those fake spray tans). This is in preparation for Halloween because I don't want to have a farmers tans on my arms or, worse, white legs! So I exfoliated and moisturized my body to get ready for the tanning. Then I called up the tanning place and asked about the whole process and she let me know that the tans last up to 3-5 days.. hm. Well, my parties aren't until Friday and Saturday, so it would be too early to get it today. So then I decided against going. But STILL, I exfoliated! and moisturized!

And then I went and ran some errands with Jon. We went to the new Target store that they built down the street from where we live. I went in and could NOT remember what I needed to buy. I walked out with deodorant and tweezers. Yes, TWEEZERS. lol. Oh, it gets gayer.

We then drove down to Best Buy because I've been wanting this DVD for a while now: Celine Dion, A New Day (her show in Vegas). Sigh. Yes, I'm a big closet Celine fan. She's amazing, and you all know it. Bought the DVD for $16.99, and then Jon and I decided that we wanted to continue our gay day and watch a movie in the theaters. What movie, you ask? Going along with the theme of the day, you MAY have guessed it already... Yes, folks... High School Musical 3: Senior Year!



It actually was REALLY enjoyable. I'm a little bias because I work for Disneyland and everything. But, I liked it a lot. Really entertaining and the dancing was real good. Can't wait until it comes out on DVD!

After the movie, I drove back to my apartment, invited Miles over, and we watched the Celine DVD. Amazing singing. Amazing choreography. Amazing stage. Amazing everything. Celine Dion is .... I can't believe I'm using this word ... FIERCE! But the perfect word to sum up my incredibly gay day. And I loved every minute of it. :)

Coming Out (Almost) #4, Halloween Update

Today, I almost came out to my good friend N (she has a very unique name so she's staying in initials). It almost got there, but then I chickened out for some reason... So to preface my story, today, Miles and I went to Beverly Hills to go shopping for new outfits to wear to go out on the town. We had planned to go to West Hollywood for some clubbing with Jon tomorrow night. So we wanted to look nice ;) Well, long story short, Jon hasn't been feeling well and isn't up for going out anymore. So we had to cancel.

I'm at work on my iPhone, texting Miles telling him about Jon. The iPhone makes a loud noise every time I send or receive a text. So N is sitting next to me when this happens. She asks me, "Who are you texting?" because I guess the sounds were catching her attention.

Me: Oh, it's Miles. We're just texting each other cuz we're mad at Jon for ditching us tomorrow.

N: What's going on tomorrow?

Me: Miles, Jon and I were supposed to go out together. But Jon's busy or sick or something.

N: Oh really? What were you guys going to do?

Me: We were going to go clubbing!

N: Clubbing? Where were you guys planning to go? WeHo?

Me: Haha (nervously). Yea.

And that was the end of the conversation. So you see, I could've easily just slipped it in at the end: "N, I'm gay." But something held me back from doing it. I know that N is one of my friends that I want to come out to next. I just need to do it and not chicken out. Guess I'll keep everyone posted on that.

In other news, remember those short shorts that I ordered for my Halloween costume? Well, I found out that they were back ordered and weren't going to be arriving in time!! So I contacted the shop immediately and asked them to just give me the next size up (which they had available). Luckily, they were able to make that change right away, and it looks like I'll be getting it by the beginning of next week! WHEW!

And then tonight, I decided to put on what I do have of my costume and do a little photo shoot to see if it's going to look ok and believable. So here's what it looks like.

I'm wearing boxers instead of my short shorts. They're the length that they would be, but the real ones will be a darker blue. I'm also going to have long tube socks and shoes on. Do you think I need to iron on some sort of school logo or anything on my white shirt? I'm just not sure people will understand P.E. Teacher from what I'm wearing. Let me know what you think!

My Birthday

Disclaimer: Some parts of this blog post are sexually explicit ;)

First, thanks to those who wished me a happy birthday ;)

So on this Friday, I stay up chatting with Barry on Yahoo Messenger until 6am. We find out that we have a lot of the same tastes in music. We start swapping some MP3s, and I find out that you can give songs as gifts on iTunes! Barry sends me two songs through iTunes as a birthday present and I am so thankful. He's so cute for sending me something for my birthday. And I thank him from the bottom of my heart for spending money on me.

After the chat and sleep, I wake up at 12 noon and start my day off with some lounging on the couch. I open up my laptop and go through my routine of checking MySpace, Facebook, and the blogs. Then I open up an internet gay dating hookup site and browse through the profiles. I find a guy that more or less fits my "type": young, athletic, white boy with blonde hair and a good smile. So I send him a message to say hi. Not too much later, I receive a message back asking how I was doing and if I go to 24 Hour Fitness. So through a few rounds of messages back and forth, I tell him that yes, I have a membership, and sure I'll meet him there. I don't usually do this. And by "this", I mean I don't usually agree to random hookups. But I figure, hey, it's my birthday. I should do something fun!

I drive out to the gym and I enter the locker room. Immediately, I see 4 or 5 really hot, half naked guys getting dressed/undressed. Of course I also see 4 or 5 not so attractive guys as well, but I ignore them and focus (without being obvious, of course) on the hot ones. I get undressed as well, feeling completely inadequate compared to all the hotties, which just motivates me to go to the gym more often now, and put on my swim trunks and go out to the pool. I spot him doing some laps in the pool so I take the lane next to him and also do some laps. Swimming is good for my scoliosis, and I have lots of fun swimming - I don't know why I don't do it more often. Back to Swimming Hottie...., we do some continuous laps and we find ourselves taking breaks at the same time right next to each other. We take some glances at each other and make eye contact a few times. He then gets out of the pool and walks over to get into the jacuzzi. I follow suit after doing a few more laps. More glances and awkward eye contact. Other people enter and exit the jacuzzi. We finally give each other the signal to get the heck out of there. So I go back in the locker room and see more hotties down the locker aisles. One of them is checking himself out in the mirror. I would too if I had a body like that! Yum. I get dressed and see Swimming Hottie walking out, so I follow.

I follow him down to a quiet place outside and he tells me that he lives just down the street but his roommates are home. Darn. So I ask if he wants to exchange numbers, so we do. And I head back to my car, trying to decide what else to do for the rest of my birthday. As I put my gym bag in the trunk of my Prius, I get a text from Swimming Hottie: "Wanna fool around in your car?" I respond, "Sure." So I pick him up and we drive across the street to a parking structure and drive up to the top floor. I park, leave the car on of course, and we go about having some fun. He reaches over and starts to take off my shorts. I do the same and he's already hard as a rock. He leans over and we make out with each other for a while. It's still a weird sensation to feel stubble when I kiss but I think I quite enjoy that. And then he leans over and starts giving me a blowjob. He comes back up after about a minute or two and I reach over and play with him. I'm about to lean over to reciprocate, but he tells me to stop jerking him, and then 2 seconds later, he starts cumming. If it wasn't clear before, we had only parked maybe 4 minutes prior to this. Sigh... I'm still pretty hard so I just start jerking myself off. After he finishes and cleans up, he reaches over to finish me off. I just try to cum as quick as possible because it's just awkward now and I kind of want to laugh out loud at him for cumming so quickly. I drive him back to the gym because he rode his bike and I drop him off. Not so sure I'll meet up with him again... but I guess it was still fun to do something that I don't usually do. Plus it gave my confidence and ego a much needed boost.

And since I drove out to Costa Mesa, I decide to head out to the Apple Store there to check out the newly updated MacBooks and MacBook Pros. I find them to be incredibly sleek and sexy! I think I might have cum a second time as I play with these incredible machines. Hehe. But unfortunately, I can't afford to even pay for a nice dinner, so I'm going to just have to be satisfied with my current, outdated MacBook for the time being.

I also visit the Sports Chalet next door to buy accessories for my Halloween costume! After a few days of thinking of concepts and designing and searching on the internet (and some inspiration from Ja over at Gym Ra(n)t), I finally decide that this year, I'm going to be a P.E. Teacher! Of course, a sexy, pervy, hot P.E. Teacher. ;) So basically, I buy wrist bands, a headband, and whistle. I already have long tube socks and some sneakers. And I'm getting a pair of hot short shorts from InternationalJock.com - and this is what they look like:

If only I looked like that!!

I'm just deciding on what to wear for a top. Something tight and sexy. Maybe a sleeveless T. But should I print some sort of logo or anything on it? Will I need to in order to convey the P.E. Teacher look? Or will everything else be good enough? I'm going to carry around a clipboard for pictures, but I'm ditching that when the party begins. But I'm REALLY excited about going to my two planned Halloween parties this year! I just need to make sure to head out to the beach to tan my legs if I'm going to wear those short shorts! That, or get some bronzer!

The rest of the day, I hang out with the ex-girlfriend. And then I have a nice dinner with close friends at Chili's. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but I'm an ultra-lightweight when it comes to alcohol, but I decide that my birthday is an appropriate to get a drink. So I leave it up to my friends to choose a drink for me. The only rule is that they have to pick a drink where they don't think I can taste the alcohol, because if I taste it, it's guaranteed to come back up. So they order the Reggae Sunsplash. I don't even know what's in it, but I drink it and it tastes good. So I drink some more. But within a minute, my face turns bright red. And the next few minutes, my friends take pictures of my incredibly flushed face.

I get home after the dinner and decide that since I'm still dressed up nicely from my dinner that this is as good a time as any to take some pictures of myself. I snap about 10-15 pictures, keep about 8, and am now posting one for y'all.


I quickly upload this photo to the internet dating hookup site and start browsing again. I find another boy fitting my type and proceed to message him as well. To my surprise, I get a response. 2 out of 2 for the day. He asks me how I was doing, so I tell him I was doing pretty well and that I just had dinner with my friends for my birthday. He then wishes me a happy birthday and tells me that he thinks that every guy should get a blowjob on his birthday. Hmmm... again, not something that I would do normally, but since it is still my birthday for another hour, I play along. After a few more messages back and forth, I agree to having some fun with him. Then he tells me, "Well, it's pretty late tonight and I have to work tomorrow." Failure... Or so I thought. After the "pressure" of meeting up was gone, we continue to send each other messages back and forth. We swap pictures of ourselves, G-rated and some body shots. We then schedule a time where we can meet up, which will be this Wednesday night. And we swap phone numbers so we can text each other. By this time, it's about 3:00am, so the "I have to work tomorrow" thing was just a lie, but I'm glad he did because I probably would have felt REALLY uncomfortable meeting him without getting to know him more. Swimming Hottie was different because I met him at a public place, but this guy I would be meeting him either at his place or my place. Anyway, I get a text from him at 3:30am asking me for a picture of my cock hard. I think, what the heck, why not? So I take a quick one on my iPhone and send it to him (and I make sure to delete it right away because I know my friends/family like to play with my iPhone... so Miles and Jon - you won't find anything naughty on my iPhone! LOL). He texts me back a few times to tell me that I'm cute and hott (definite ego-booster) and then he asks if I can take a picture of me cumming. So I tell him I can do one better and I give him my xtube channel. (Not going to publicize my channel here tho) He says he really enjoyed it and that he is really looking forward to having some fun with me on Wednesday. I must say that I'm looking forward to it too! And then all of a sudden, it's 4:30am and I decide to call it a night and end my birthday celebration because I'm dead tired.

But all in all, for an unplanned birthday, I had a pretty exciting day, wouldn't you say? A sort of low key, yet adventurous and fun birthday. Looking forward to seeing what's in stored for me this year!

Still Doing Those Push Ups

So I'm still working on my one hundred push ups program. I am on the last week now (Week 6) but I don't see how I'm supposed to be able to 100 at the end of Week 6. Well, let me clarify... I'm actually on Week 6, Part B. I'm doing Week 6 over again, but in higher level. Each week has 3 levels, and I plan on doing all 3 parts. I was able to do 50 pushups before I started to feel real strain in the muscles in my arms. That's REAL good for me! But how am I supposed to get to 100?? I'm totally not ready for that yet. I think the push up program should be an 8 week program.

But I can definitely see the progress in my chest. And I am completely happy about it. I've also been (trying) to eat better, healthier. But anyone who has ever tried any sort of "diet" knows, it doesn't always work out. BUT, I am still seeing a difference and I took a picture of myself and I think I look amazingly skinny/fit in it. (Came out a little conceited there.. but whatever. lol)


This Halloween, I really want to be able to wear something more revealing than my stupid Scream costume that I've had forever. (Well, last year, I was a SARS patient because I didn't have my costume with me.. and it was just a mask over my face and some makeup for some sunken eyes) But maybe something a little more fun and, dare I say, sexier would be most desirable this year. Anyone have any good ideas for a costume??

Random Question of the Week (because I like to know more about my readers):
What's your favorite current TV show? And current meaning it has new episodes this season.
P.S. This is a REAL tough question for me because I love SO many TV shows... so I'm actually going to have to think about it a while before I give my answers. lol.

As Promised...

Here's the other side of the jack-o-lantern! Even cuter, right? And oh yeah, don't know those people... they just got in the way of my shot.

Testing. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Edit: So I just wanted to test posting images directly from my iPhone. Guess it works! :) (btw, isn't that the cutest jack-o-latern you've ever seen? heh)