Hong Kong (Part 3)

So, I finally get to the Hong Kong portion of my "Hong Kong" posts. On Sunday morning, my Mom, Dad, and I went to the ferry port to board the ferry back to Hong Kong. And to avoid seasickness, all three of us sleep through the entire 1 hour ferry ride. Once we get there, we get on a bus to meet up with my aunt (mom's little sister). After dropping off all our luggage, we head out on the town. I requested that we go back to where I grew up and my the kindergarten that I went to. It was really cool to check out where I used to live. I don't really remember any of it... just really vague bits and pieces that may or may not just be what I THINK I remember after seeing pictures of myself when I was little. Nonetheless, it was nice to be back there again and listen to some of the stories from my mom.

That night, we had Hot Pot (Fig. 1), where you just have a big pot of boiling water in the middle and you throw veggies and raw meat in there until it's cooked. We had a bunch of different meats and veggies. My favorite is the beef of course... very thinly sliced beef. I think I had a whole plate by myself. :P

Fig. 1

The next day, we woke up early enough to head to Immigration Servies to get my Hong Kong Permanent Residents Card. Even though we had an appointment time, we STILL had to wait over an hour before we were seen. We were first screened by a very unfriendly worker. My dad had a few questions for her and she snapped back saying that we needed to ask the official (supervisor). Then when she approved me, I had to wait for an official. Another 20 minutes. Finally got called. At least the official worked quickly. We paid, and then we were on our way to meet my aunt for some dim sum!

The dim sum restaurant was more upscale and lots of business folk were in there having their lunch. I liked a lot of their dishes. Everything was fresh and tasty, including the chicken feet (foreground in Fig. 2, closeup in Fig. 3). YUMMY! hehehe.

Fig. 2

Fig. 3

The rest of the day, we walked around Hong Kong for a while, before deciding on heading up to The Peak. Along the way, we had some egg custard? I think it's egg custard. I really don't know what it's called in English. I just know it's yummy. And it's a dessert. And it can be eaten hot or cold. And they make a milk version too. I had the egg, my mom and dad had the milk. Here's a picture after I finished eating it... so it might look kinda gross. haha.



We took a hike up to the tram for The Peak, which is one of the highest points in Hong Kong. Now it's a tourist trap. The tram drops you off in a shopping center that doesn't seem to have any exits... We had to leave through a back hallway. LOL. I did take a picture to show how high we were once I was able to get out (Fig. 5)

Fig. 5

We didn't do any shopping or anything. Just basically went up there just to say we did it. Didn't even stay to eat or anything. Just took a few pictures and then went back down. And that pretty much concluded our nice touristy, sight-seeing day. We went home and had some home-cooked Chinese food... err, I mean... just food. hehe. Here's a nicely crafted New Year's Cake made to look like goldfish (which is a sign of wealth and fortune) that we had as dessert. :)


Actually kinda creepy looking.... HAHA. And then the next day was my last day in Hong Kong. Went to Hong Kong Disneyland with my mom, aunt, and cousin. So I'll save that post for another day. :) I'll end this post with a nice shot of Hong Kong Island, taken from Kowloon (which is still a part of the whole of Hong Kong, but is on the mainland). I just thought it looked cool with the reflection on the water... with the Red, White, and Blue too. hehe.

Jeans...

I was over at Matt's Debriefing The Boys and I read on his twitter: "Hot straight guys shouldnt be allowed to wear pants to work that makes their ass look great. Its just not fair. And such a waste!"

Aside from the LOL, I thought: "What kind of jeans/pants SHOULD I wear to make my ass look good?" I have such a horrible fashion sense and I definitely don't know what makes a pear of jeans good. However, I HAVE noticed that the pairs of jeans I own now do NOT make my butt very flattering. In the past 2 months or so, I know I've lost an inch or so in my waist so I've moved on to the next hole in my belt. But that just scrunches up the waistline in my old jeans and makes everything look baggy. I don't fill in my jeans like I used to.

BUT, I also had a pair of skinny jeans that I wore the first time I went out to WeHo. I'm not sure if I blogged about it.. but they were so tight that I couldn't breathe when I was sitting. LOL. But now, they fit pretty well... YET when I look in the mirror, it still looks baggy around the butt and the upper thigh area. ARGH.

So, what sort of jeans/pants am I supposed to look for? And what makes an ass look great? It'd be nice to know. LOL. And I'm guessing the answer is different for everyone because everyone's ass is different, but a little advice would be greatly appreciated. I want a better looking ass when I go out! hehe.

Hong Kong (Part 2)

Where did I leave off? Ah that's right... my second day in Macao. I slept through the night, just as I had hoped. And woke up around 10:30am or so, refreshed and ready for another day of sightseeing. :) By 11:30am, my mom and I were out the door to meet my dad at the nearby Dim Sum Restaurant. For those who are unfamiliar, Dim Sum is a Chinese lunch in which you receive small plates of many different types of food so that the table can share. We got some egg rolls, some turnip cake, some rice noodles, and some barbeque pork rolls. YUMMO


After Dim Sum, we walked through the crowded streets of Macao to get to the Church of the Mater Dei. It's a Macao landmark. Many years ago, the church burnt down and all that was left was the front facade of the it since it was made of stone. The Macao government have left it up and used the area to build a museum and park around it.



Next stop, we trudged up the hill to the old fort. The Portuguese army built this fort up on the hill nearest to the port so they had a bunch of cannons up there as well. The cannons up on in the fort now are obviously not the ones they used way back when, but we got to take pictures next to these replicas, which was pretty cool. :)



We made our way back down the hill and we visited my dad's old elementary school. We also went for a stroll around the park right next door to his school where he used to play. Pretty cool to see where my dad used to grow up. We also stopped by the area where he used to lived. He used to live in a small house, now replaced by a high-rise building, just like most of Macao. We also walked by my mom's old house, again replaced by another high-rise apartment building. Macao has changed a lot since my mom and dad were kids.

Then, as we were walking back to our house, I was attacked by a vicious lion!!! Ok, I'm lying. But we really did encounter a lion... a Chinese ceremonial lion. It was just walking down the street with several performers, celebrating the New Year. I'm guessing it was on its way to their next gig down the street. LOL. The Lion performers are so talented. They really make the movements of the lion look real.



That night, we ate a famous Portuguese cuisine restaurant. REALLY yummy food. Unfortunately, I did not get any pictures of the meal. But I did have a yummy curry pork fried rice dish.

Rest of the night was spent with relatives, watching TV. We watched an "American Idol" type show. We just kinda spent 3 hours watching episode after episode. LOL. Got dropped off by my uncle and then slept the night away. :) The next few day, we traveled back to Hong Kong to meet up with my other aunt and uncle, to get my Hong Kong Permanent Residents Card, and to go to Hong Kong Disneyland. Will post about that another night... I'm pooped now.

By the way, still waiting for the call about the audition. If I don't get a call by the end of the this week, then it means I didn't get the show. But hopefully I'll get a call. And about Jamie... I haven't made up my mind about it. But it's not like I'm going to make a trip out to Orlando now.. it'd be some time around June. Perhaps I can talk to Jamie about it the next time we chat. Maybe he'd want to take a vacation out here?? Who knows... Blah, I just can't believe I'm still talking about Jamie! I was hoping that by now I'd be blogging about some boy that I really REALLY like and that really REALLY likes me back. Hopefully that comes soon...

A Chat With Jamie

Saturday night, and going into Sunday morning, I had a chat with Jamie.... yes, THAT Jamie. We chatted for a good 2 hours. We asked how each other were and talked about our jobs. And then he asked whether I was dating or not. I told him that I had been sort of seeing a boy but things are over now... explained that he was too young and immature. He then told me that the boy he was seeing at the time that I had visited him back in September was also too young and immature for him, and that's why he broke it off with him. Then the conversation somehow got to our first time together and when we had sex... how nervous we both were and everything. We both agreed that it would've been a much better experience if we had both relaxed a bit more.

Here's the kicker... he then tells me that after our little date that night in Orlando in September, he wanted to come into my hotel room and do it "the right way," as he put it. Just under the circumstances (him seeing that boy at the time), it just didn't seem right. I always wondered what he thought of me and our date after that night. As I blogged, I was just dropped off at my hotel after our date and left to walk up to my room alone. I regretted not asking him to come up to the room at that time, and now I REALLY do wonder what he would've said if I did ask! LOL.

But I guess it's just a nice ego-boost right now to know that he did enjoy my company and still wants to do dirty things to me :P And, not gonna lie, I'd love it if we could get together again. I just know that we have many things in common, we're attracted to each other, I'm really comfortable being around him, and we have a good time together.

I'm thinking about planning another trip out to Orlando again... Blah, is that stupid of me??

Ask a Blogger #5

A fun little blogging game made up by my buddy AJ @ AJ's Ramblings. Here are the rules:

1. Blogger 1 posts a question on their blog.
2. The first person to comment on said Blogger's post needs to direct readers to their blog, and then becomes Blogger 2.
3. Blogger 2 answers Blogger 1's question on his/her own blog (so Blogger 2's blog).
4. Blogger 2 posts a question on his/her blog.
5. And then the new Blogger repeats step 1-4.

So AJ's question was: "When/how did you know you were gay/bi/whatever?"

My answer: Wow... this is a tough question to answer. I mean, it definitely wasn't like one day I just KNEW. But I guess it definitely all started back when I found the Spice channels on our cable box. We had the illegal black box that got all the pay-per-view channels. And at night, there would be softcore porn. :P So I began watching that, but after a while, I found myself watching the guys. And then we got the internet, and I started surfing for porn on there. At first, it was just straight porn. But again, I found myself really intrigued by the male body. And then after a while, I started searching for gay porn. I distinctly remember downloading 5 second clips of gay porn and having it play over and over on repeat. LOL.

So I knew I liked boys early on, but I kept telling myself that I liked girls too, even though I never really cared for straight porn too much. I would still get aroused by straight porn... I wasn't, and still am not, disgusted at the sight of a naked woman like some gays do. So I just kept telling myself that I was bi. But after I broke up with my girlfriend, and I had my first sexual experience with a boy (re: Jamie), I knew that I was definitely gay. And it was then that I accepted that I was gay.

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Well, I guess it's time for my question. It's sorta lame.. I'm horrible at coming up with questions.
"What's the most number of times you've jerked off in one day, and why were you so damn horny that you had to jerk off that many times!?"

And to recap the rules, I'm Blogger #5, which means whoever comments first will become Blogger #6. And remember, don't comment with your answer to my question... Save the answer for your own blog post. :)

Hong Kong (Part 1)

I finally have some time right now! Well first off, just wanted to let everyone know that I'm feeling a lot better. I don't think I'm sick any more. whew! And today's audition DID go well. We are now just waiting for them to make calls. So I'll know within the week. :) Fingers crossed!

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So Hong Kong! On Wednesday Jan 28, I was scheduled to take a 10:20pm flight out of Los Angeles International Airport. But because my flight had so few passengers, they merged my flight with the 12 midnight flight out to Hong Kong. Which meant I had to wait wait and wait until all the passengers from the midnight flight had arrived. BLAH. So I arrived in Hong Kong an hour and 30 minutes late. And when I got there, I had to navigate my way over to the Hong Kong-Macao Ferry Port, buy my own ticket for the ferry, and cross customs. And damn that customs line! It was SOOO long for for the Visitors line! Macao is a small city along the Southeast China coast, an hour's boat ride away from Hong Kong. It has recently become a HUGE gambling city, with Las Vegas sized casinos. The Wynn and The Venetian are both there already!

Anyway, I finally arrived in Macao. My mom and aunt were waiting for me at the terminal. We dropped off my luggage at the house, where my dad greeted me, and we all immediately went out to get some food to eat! We went to my dad's favorite place to get coffee because they have really good pork sandwiches and ox tail soup. hehe, yes, oxtail soup. Unfortunately, I did not get a picture of this delicacy because I didn't think about taking pictures of food yet, but I assure you that the food was YUMMY.

Then we headed to the Macao Immigration Services office to take care of what I went to Macao and Hong Kong for. As I had explained before, since my mom and dad were born in Macao, I am eligible for a Permanent Residents card in Macao that allows me to stay in Macao indefinitely and to get a job there if I so choose. ALSO, it allows me to stand in the "Macao Residents" line at customs, thus bypassing that HORRIBLY LONG Visitors line that I had to endure through just a few hours prior. So I took my picture, did the fingerprints, and filled out the paperwork. Then they told me that I'd receive the card in a few weeks - and my aunt (who reisdes in Macao) will pick it up for me.

After taking care of that, my mom and aunt and I went to go shopping for cheap clothes. ;) I bought authentic American Eagle and Abercrombie sweaters for only about $80 Macao, which is about $10 US! SCORE! And then, because I'm a fatty, I was already hungry again, so we stepped outside the store and decided to eat some "Hot Pot" from a little side-of-the-street vendor. YUMMY! I had some fish balls and cow intenstines. yes, cow intestines. :P

Look at all the yummy food!

After having my little snack, we took the scenic route back to the house. Lots of people in the city because it was still within the festivities for Chinese New Year. And plus, it's such a small city that it's crowded everywhere you go. We met back up with my dad there, and then my aunt drove us out to a smaller island neighboring Macao called Coloane, where we sat down in a restaurant called Lord Stowe's Bakery and had the famous Portuguese Egg Tarts. The difference between normal egg tarts and Portuguese egg tarts is that they caramelize and slightly burn some sugar on top. Man, SOOO Yummy!

We finished our snack and then drove back to Macao. My aunt dropped my mom, dad, and I at The Venetian Hotel and Casino. We stayed there for about an hour to just check it out and to play the slots a bit. My mom loaned me $100 to play (which is equivalent to only about $15 US), but I lost it all pretty quickly. I don't have very good luck with slots, I guess. My mom, however, kept winning and winning! She ended up making $180. NICE!

Then, we made our way to our other aunt's house and had some home cooked Chinese food there. But, of course, over there, we just call it "food." :P Oh and, by the way, my mom had 7 brothers and sisters. So you're going to see me talk about several aunts and uncles. lol. So we ate, and then watched TV for a few hours. But because I'm a fatty, I agreed to have dessert at this new neighborhood hangout. We drove out to the shop and we ordered some Black Sesame Soup and a Mango/Tapioca dessert.


So, if you've been counting, I've already eaten 5 times in one day. And that's not even counting the meals I had on the plane. LOL. I definitely gained some weight on this trip. However, I didn't gain TOO much weight because I did have to walk a lot. Thank goodness! And also, you may have noticed that I didn't really take a nap or anything this whole first day. That was my plan. I didn't want to sleep at all until it was actually nighttime and a proper sleeping time. This is my secret for being jetlag. I slept right away when it was time, slept through the whole night, and woke up super refreshed. ;) No jetlag whatsoever!

Well, more about the rest of my Hong Kong trip coming up. I'll talk about straddling a big cannon and my encounter with a lion! (How's that for a cliffhanger? lol) I'll leave you all with the view of nighttime Macao from our house.

Auditions, again...

Another day... and yet I still have not posted about Hong Kong. Sorry... I think I just feel like it's going to be a super long post and I just don't have the energy to do it right now. I'm still sick, but I am feeling better. So that's good. Especially because I have another audition in the morning. This time it's for a show that I've auditioned for 5 times, each time being met with a rejection. So I'm really not getting my hopes up on this one. But I know I just gotta still go and try. So we'll see how it goes. No worries if it doesn't go well.

Guess I better get to sleep now... after I check out my latest downloaded videos from SeanCody and CorbinFisher, of course :P

Been Sick..

So I'm back at home in my studio apartment.. but I've been sick. :( Hence not posting about my trip to Hong Kong as promised. But the post is coming. It'll just take me a little time. I have a busy weekend. It's my mom's birthday tonight (and I still haven't gotten her anything... eek!). Then I have another audition at Disney to go to tomorrow morning. And then all day Sunday, I'm helping my friend shoot a dance film.

I just hope I don't die from this cold.... I just ran out of tissues to blow my nose... great....

Hong Kong

I'm having a great time here in Hong Kong. I've gotten some business taken care of regarding my identification card in Macao (a neighboring city-state of Hong Kong) and will be doing the same for Hong Kong tomorrow. Since my parents were born in Macao, I am eligible for a special "Residents Card" that allows for easier entry into Macao. And since I was born in Hong Kong, I'm eligible for Hong Kong's special "Residents Card." So after I receive these cards, I'll probably make trips to Hong Kong more often since it'll be convenient. :) And plus I have lots of relatives here in Hong Kong and Macao.

So, I've seriously eaten SOOO much in my 3 days here. Macao and Hong Kong have little restaurants EVERYWHERE. Every street has some sort of restaurant. And they're little hole-in-the-wall style shops. And there's ALL different kinds of foods. I've eaten a different style of Chinese food every day. I've even gotten some Portuguese food as well! But surprisingly, I'm not any fatter than before. Must be all the walking that we do.

Two days from now, we're heading to Hong Kong Disneyland. I get to go for free, so why not?! And I get to take 3 family members with me too! There's not much to do at this Disneyland, but I'm excited to see the shows and just see a new Disneyland. I'll be taking loads of pictures -- living up to the Asian Tourist stereotype! :P

Speaking of pictures, I don't really have time to upload any pictures now. Plus I need to take some time to "Anonymous-ize" my pictures. (Like my new word?) But I promise to post pictures once I get back to the comfort of my own home in the States.

More updates soon! Hope everyone is doing well!

I've Arrived

'Just wanted to update everyone. Made it to Hong Kong safely. Now in the neighboring city of Macao (where my mom and dad grew up). It's also the new "Vegas" of China. Casinos such as the Venentian and the Wynn have built large casinos here. Went to the Venetian today... WAY crowded. And I lose on the slots. boo. But my Mom won $80! That's $80 in Macao currency.. which is equivalent to $10 US. hehe.

In other news, I've lived up to being a fatty and have been eating non-stop since I've arrived. I'm pretty sure I've already gained 5 extra pounds. eek!

More to come later! Hope everyone is doing well!

Oh! 10,000 Views!

HAHA, so I totally forgot to keep track and already received my 10,000th view! Probably a few days ago! YAY! I'm so happy to have so many viewers (cuz you all know I'm a reader and comment whore) and I'm just glad that you guys come back to read up on my life. I'm happy to share it with all of you. :)

Not too much to say right now....
On Monday night, Matty called me to see what I was up to. I told him that I was actually on my way out (semi-true) but that he should stop by real quick because he left his cheese grater at my place. I told him to give me a call when he made it downstairs so that I could run it down to him. I didn't want him to come up, just because I don't want to lead him on anymore. So he called me, I went downstairs, and I gave him his grater. He had just come from his second-chance audition at Disney, but got cut again. So he had this horribly bummed and "feel sad for me, please" face. Wasn't working on me though. We just gave each other a hug and then I said goodbye and went back upstairs. We've only been in contact sparsely through text and AIM since then.

And updating everyone about my documentary film, I just finished all the scheduled interviews today. Had a REAL long day of interviews on my very last day! Everyone waited until the last minute to sign up for an interview! LOL. So, now it's time to edit edit edit! I have 7 hours of interview footage to go through. And then there's additional footage to sift through and insert into the film. Such a huge project. I'm never going to finish by my Feb 13 deadline.... wish me luck.

Responding to the comments about the Dealbreaker: Thanks everyone for your comments. I'm happy that you support me on the no-smoking rule. I have to say I was being way bitchy in the post. But I think that's just cuz I was just REALLY over him that night and needed to vent. Then responding to comments about me leaving for Hong Kong: Thanks for the well wishes! It's really not a very "relaxing" vacation because I'm going to be running around a lot, getting all the business done. But hopefully I will find some time to head to Disneyland and to have some great food. As for calling myself fatty... I just like to be self-deprecating... if you haven't figured that out yet. But in all honesty, I think I'm in the best shape in a REAL long time. And it's just going to get better once the new parade starts! Now I want to work on my arms, chest, shoulders, and back. Anyone have any good dumbbell exercises to share for those muscle groups?

Alright... this is my last post until I get to Hong Kong! "Talk" to you all then!

Leaving

I'm getting on a plane Wednesday night on a 10:20pm flight to Hong Kong. I have some passport/identification card business to take care of. You see, I was born in Hong Kong, and that apparently makes me eligible for a special identification card for the Hong Kong S.A.R. I've been needing to take care of this for a few years now but just haven't found the time to go back there. But since I'm currently not getting any hours at work, it's perfect time for me to go. However, it's really a VERY short trip. Kind of a waste of money... but my parents wanted me to take care of it, so whatever. I'm leaving Wednesday night and won't be arriving in Hong Kong until Friday morning (~6:00am, due to crossing the Date Line and all...). And then I'm flying back to the States on Tuesday night, arriving back in California also Tuesday night (again... Date Line). I just have my second job that requires me to be there Saturdays and Wednesdays. So I'm already missing this Saturday... I can't miss that next Wednesday too! So I had to be back for that.

While there, I'll also try and visit Hong Kong Disneyland. Actually... I WILL visit Hong Kong Disneyland. Make it my #1 priority. :P And then of course, visiting with relatives and all that comes in at a close second. I'm just excited to go back to EAT EAT and EAT! Hong Kong has one of the BEST variety and quality of food in the whole world! Just watch the Travel Channel or the Food Network. They'll tell you! Hong Kong is like a heaven for fatties like me! I'm probably going to come back at least 10 pounds heavier.

Well, I definitely hope to keep everyone up to date while on my trip to Hong Kong. I'll have internet access. So I'm sure I'll update the blog every night. I'll take loads of pictures and share it here too. :)

Audition and Dealbreaker

I'm actually pretty tired right now again, but I want to write about what happened the past two days before I forget too much. Well, on Friday night, Matty came over for dinner. We went to the store to buy some last minute ingredients. Matty made veggie potstickers from scratch and I made my famous fried rice (sans meat) and a banana-chocolate bread. I must say that our dinner was a great success. Everything tasted amazing. I LOVED my fried rice. hehe. Even though it didn't have any meat in it, it still tasted like good fried rice. That is until Matty tampered with it. He said it needed more pepper. And I agreed with him, so I asked him to just sprinkle pepper into the wok. I was doing something else while he was doing that, but then I realized after about 15-20 seconds, he was STILL sprinkling pepper into it... and of course, when I got my plate of fried rice, it was WAY too pepper-y. He enjoyed it... but it really took away from the flavor of my fried rice. booo. strike one.

After dinner, we sat on the couch to watch a little bit of TV. We were both on our computers checking our emails and facebooks. Then he started telling me about this new anime cartoon that his friend got him hooked on. I have NO idea what it's about... something about super heroes that like food? I don't know... but he kept going on and on about it. Could he really not tell that I wasn't listening to him anymore? I think he must've talked for a good 10 minutes, explaining the anime in detail... didn't hear a word. Blah Blah Blah. strike two.

Well, not everything was bad though. We did have our sexy time. Got a little hot and heavy on the couch this time. Made out on the couch for a while, then took each others clothes off and made out naked on the couch for a while. Then I gave his dick some attention with my mouth. He seemed to like that. :P And then I climbed on top of him and rode him until I came on his stomach. Man, it felt good. ;) Took a shower together afterwards. He told me I looked good while we were in there. Said he liked my muscles and my abs. Ha. Sure said the right things there. guess I'll rescind strike two.

That night, he slept in my bed. We went to bed at 10:30pm. So early! It was because we were both going to the audition for the new parade at Disneyland. We wanted to get enough rest so that we could look our best for the audition. Well, I guess I'm just not used to sharing my bed.. especially my super dinky twin size bed made for one person. I was tossing and turning all night. I couldn't find a comfortable position. All the while, Matty was sound asleep. Blah... nerves about the audition probably didn't help the sleeping problem.. afterall, my income depended on it. I NEEDED to get this parade. It was real important to me.

So we wake up in the morning. We have some of my banana-chocolate bread for breakfast... YUMMY! And then we grab our stuff and head down to our cars. We had to drive separately because I was going to be leaving the audition to go to my other job, so we couldn't carpool. Well, when he got down to his car, he says to me: "So, my friend Bianca gave me this cigarette. Do you mind if I smoke it?" Err... first of all, I HATE smokers. I can't stand cigarette smoke. I just can't. When I was 10 years old, I was taking a 16 hour flight to Hong Kong. Back then, smoking had not been banned from flight yet. There were still smoking sections on the plane. And of course, our family was stuck in the smoking section. I had to endure 16 hours of secondhand smoke. THAT is why I cannot stand smoking. I told him: "Well, you can do whatever you want (because I'm not about to tell him what he can or can't do), but I just really hate smokers." And then I walked away and went to my car... strike two.

We got to the parking lot at backstage Disney, and we walk down together. I could smell the smoke on him. Just lovely... We get to the "holding area" for the audition, and I see a bunch of my friends standing together and chatting. I decide to stand elsewhere with Matty. I just didn't want to introduce my friends to Matty... that's so bad, isn't it? I just didn't want to deal with having to explain who Matty was. I'm still not out to everyone at work, and the day of the audition was definitely NOT going to be the day that that was going to happen. So I just kinda stayed off to the side with Matty.

We finally get in and we start to learn our first dance. I picked up the dance right away. It was a moderate level dance, but you gotta really be able to move to make it look good. Matty looked like he struggled with it. Despite what he says about having danced before, I could tell that he was not a dancer. I was pretty confident with it and I was getting into my "zone." When I'm at auditions, I just have this way of getting focused and doing what I need to do to learn it and retain the choreography. And that includes NOT over practicing it because it'll just screw me up later. So when they gave us time to practice it on our own, I sat down and just concentrated and visualized the dance in my head. Matty, however, was frantically going over the steps. He kept asking me questions about the choreography. And I would help him. I'd remind him the order of the routine and gave him some pointers on how to make it look better. I occasionally stood up and went through the routine with him, but again, this was already going out of my "zone." And because I didn't want to over practice, I didn't do the choreography full out with him, and he got mad at me! He was frustrated with how slowly he was getting the routine and then he was taking it out on me!! I thought to myself, "HOLD ON HERE. I'm trying to help you right now, but instead you're mad at ME for not doing it full out! I'm SORRY that I'm trying to concentrate on the routine in my own way. I have much more at stake than you do! I NEED this job. You're doing this for fun. ARGH." An overwhelming strike three!

Needless to say, Matty didn't make it pass the first cut. He was called into another room with about 100 other boys. They were told to either go home or come back on Monday for a stilt audition. Matty was asked to come back for the stilts. Apparently, he's going, even though his facebook status says that he feels he has no chance. Whatever. After his attitude at the audition, I was completely over him.

Strike 1 and 2A weren't that bad. But strike 2B and 3 were definite dealbreakers, in my book. When we first met, I told him that I didn't like smokers. I had clearly asked if he smoked. And I told him my story about the plane. And he told me that he had just recently quit, and I had told him that I was proud of him for doing that. Guess that didn't last very long. I just CANNOT date a smoker.. it's seriously one thing I REFUSE to do. And as for his attitude at the audition, I just think it was selfish of him to not recognize the importance of the audition to me and how I needed to concentrate on the audition in my own way. I had expressed to him a few times during the audition about how I go about concentrating and focusing. But I guess he just didn't listen and was just worried about himself. Like I said, I tried to help, but really, there wasn't much I could do for him.

I think I'm going to be seeing him again tomorrow, since he'll be at the stilt audition. I'm just going to tell him that it's not working out with the two of us. We just don't have that much in common and I'm going to tell him that smoking is pretty much a dealbreaker for me. Just gotta end this.

God, I must sound like a bitch... tell me what you guys think... am I being ridiculous? Or do you agree with me?

P.S. After my audition, I still had to go to my second job. So when I came home at night, I was exhausted and wanted to just rest on my bed. But when I got in my bed, all I could smell was cigarette smoke that had gotten into my blanket and my sheets. Matty had smelled like cigarette smoke when he spent the night... I had just assumed that he was around friends that smoked... so I didn't question him about it. But now knowing that he had started smoking again, I just couldn't help but blame HIM for making my bed all smelly. Just when I thought I could take a much needed nap on my bed, I had to instead take off my blanket and my sheets and wash them. THAT is why I had to wash my sheets... sorry it wasn't anything naughty. LOL.

WAY Tired...

I'm way tired. I really wanted to update everyone about things. But I'm just sleepy and not up for writing a long blog post. Worst part is, I'm washing my bed sheets and blanket right now... so I can't actually sleep until I take them out of the dryer.. blah... And no, it's not what you're thinking about why I'm washing my sheets. Ok... well, it kind of is. BUT, I guess you'll just have to wait until tomorrow until I explain.

But, I WILL tell you that I went to the audition this morning. Got there at 8:30am... didn't finish dancing until 3:30pm. Had to go back at 6:00pm to find out if we got anything. Explains why I'm so tired right now. But, long story short... I GOT THE PART! I'm going to have a job!! So freakin' excited! I can't wait!

But now... I'm going to veg on the couch while I wait for my sheets to dry....

Dinner Plans

Today, I hung out with a few friends from work. We all got together for the filming of my video. Towards the end of the day, my friend Pip (one of the funniest girls I know) asked if we were all free for dinner tomorrow. She had been planning a big dinner for the longest time (since Christmas) and we just all haven't been together to plan it, since we're all unemployed and all. But when she asked me, I had to decline because Matty is coming down tomorrow night and we're having dinner together and he's staying the night again.

Well, the moment I said I had dinner plans, of course everyone asks, "Is it a date?" I didn't know what to say... Like E over in I Gotta Story To Tell I was blindsided by the question and didn't know how to respond. Only one person there knew that I'm gay. Everyone else were close friends, but I had not come out to them yet. So, I just deny that it's a date, but that just made it even more obvious that it really is a date. They kept asking me who I was going on a date with. Interestingly, noone asked, "who is she?" They kept it gender neutral....

They all seemed genuinely excited for me to know that I was going on a date, but I just could not bring myself to tell them it's with a boy. I guess I just didn't feel like it was the right situation in which to come out to them. I'd rather it be a bit more of an intimate moment...

We were all heading out to our cars during all this. So during our walk to the cars, they all pretty much dropped it, because it was obvious to them that they weren't going to get anything out of me. We all said our goodbyes, but I got in the car with Pip because she was taking me to my car (I parked elsewhere). As we buckled our seat belts, she asked me again who my date is. This was the kind of "more intimate moment" that I was talking about. But yet again, I could not bring myself to tell her. I don't know what was holding me back. She gave me several chances to do it. But I did not do it.

I thought I was pass this. I thought I had been ready to tell my friends. I had told myself before that if they ask, I would tell them. And that I wasn't going to lie to them anymore. Well... technically, I didn't lie, because I just refused to tell them who it was with. But still, I just don't know why I didn't tell her.

I'm kind of disappointed in myself...

LOST Returns!

All 4 seasons of the show are ONLINE at ABC.com. It's a tad late to start watching all the episodes thus far, since the season premiere is TONIGHT at 9pm, but if you DO start tomorrow, you can maybe get through all 4 seasons by the time the 2nd episode! Plus, there is the CLIP SHOW at 8pm, showing you all the important scenes thus far. It will help you understand what has happened on the show.

Man I LOVE this show! It really isn't for the people who have watched it a few times here and there. It's for the die-hard fans... the one who have watched every episode. There's so much in the mythology of the island and the characters. It's sometimes hard to keep track of, but if you do, it really pays off because you get all the little surprises and twists that they throw at you. ;)

And I KNOW there are a lot of people who really don't care for this show... but if you're not a fan, please be respectful and don't bash it here... find somewhere else to do it. But if you love the show, LET ME KNOW so we can discuss! :P

Boring Day

Didn't really have an exciting day today, so not much to blog about. I DID have lunch with my ex-girlfriend (Jen) though. She really has to stop calling me her Will Truman. I never really enjoyed the character of Will on Will and Grace. I always thought he was too high strung and annoying. And then Jen proceeds to tell me that's exactly what I am. Grrr... that bitch.

I spent a large portion of the rest of my day hanging out with my sister and her two kids at her house. We watched TV pretty much the whole day. Nice way to spend the holiday. ;) Except for the part where my sister didn't make any food for me.. what kind of mom is she if she doesn't even cook? Argh. I had to eat the leftovers from lunch and then scrounge for other food. Definitely did NOT fill me up. Doesn't she realize I'm broke and need her to feed me??

I'm back at my own home now.. comfort of my own little studio apartment. :) After spending 2 and a half days in a house full of people, I finally had some time alone to have some... "happy time." :D And I went all out and had some fun at cam4.com. It was definitely a much needed wank. Now I'm finishing up Extreme Makeover: Home Edition that was recorded on my DVR but am surprisingly NOT tearing up from it. Oh well.. maybe next week's will be better.

Goodnight everyone! Look forward to any comments you guys may have... and yes, that was me shamelessly asking for comments because I'm a comment whore. And I'm nearing my 10,000 visit mark! How very exciting!

Love

Can I just take this time to tell everyone that I love them? Is that alright with you? Yea? Ok good...

I LOVE YOU ALL!

I really mean it. I've "met" many of you now, either through email, IM, Yahoo, MSN, or even just the comments ... and I'm so thankful and grateful for you guys being a part of my life. You've all really become a special group of friends for me... a group of friends that know me better than many of my friends IRL. And I cherish every friendship that I've made.

And to the future frienships that I make from this blog.. YAY to those too! I don't know you yet, but I love you just as much ;)

Secret picture:

I'm not really that dark... lighting...

Funeral

So I'm home right now... home as in with my family. Or rather just my sister and HER family. My Mom and Dad are in China at the moment. But I'm home this weekend because I'm attending my uncle's funeral. It's sad, but he's been sick for a while. I think it was almost 10 years ago when my uncle needed surgery for something, and he suffered a stroke while under the knife. Since then, he has never been able to regain full functionality. He was able to walk, but only very slowly, so most of the time he was in a wheelchair.

When my family immigrated to California from Hong Kong, we stayed at his house until my parents were able to purchase our own home. He was my dad's sister's husband. I'm very grateful to him and his family for opening up his home for us. He was also a restaurant owner and he gave my mom and dad a job while they looked for jobs too. So I guess we owe a lot to him.

It's sad that I was never too close to him though. I did spend a summer taking care of him when his stroke first happened. And our familys would always go out to eat together and stuff like that. But still, I wasn't particularly close to them. I guess I'm not particularly close to any of my family members. We get along, but I guess I just don't have that family bond with anyone. What does that say about me...?

Well, the funeral is tomorrow afternoon. Then spending the rest of the night relaxing with my sister and playing with her two devil children (lol, I'm only kidding.... well, sorta...). I actually do hope I develop a special family bond with my niece and nephew. Hopefully I'll always be the fun uncle that takes them to Disneyland whenever they want. ;)

My back...

So I woke up this morning (yes, morning... it was a miracle in the first place that I woke up before 1pm), and went to go to the bathroom. Then to wash my hands and face and brush my teeth. As I bent over the sink to rinse my mouth, my lower back had this HORRIBLE pain and I had to stand straight up again real fast. I tried to bend over again to see what was going on and the pain was still there. It's not a shooting pain.. kind of a dull pain... but it hurts and I couldn't really bend down or even sit down for quite a while. Slowly, I trained myself to adjust my back to a certain position so that I could actually sit in my car and drive.

And the worse part is today was my dance class at Disney. It's our little "preview" of the new parade that we're auditioning for. So it really wasn't the best day to be having this pain. The whole time warming up for the dance class, I was in pain. Having the ability to bend over is pretty important in dance....

I just worked through it. The pain has subsided, but it's still kind of there. I just have to be careful how I sit and stuff. This has happened before. And it kinda just went away after a few hours last time, so I hope it's the same this time. I'll just make sure to stretch? I dunno. I went to the athletic trainers last time and they couldn't tell me what was wrong.

I knew I should've gone to the chiropractors this past week... I was just too lazy to call for an appointment. This is a sign that I need to go make an appointment..